Well the night has come... The night of my last day of maternity leave. Tomorrow I will leave this amazingly perfect little girl to go back to work. And I will whole heartedly admit that my heart is breaking and no Im not ok. The time is never enough the snuggling wasnt near enough raising my own child is what I really want. As I sit here snuggling this sweet baby girl as she is asleep in my arms I feel the tears building behind my eye lids. I realized the other day that from the time I get home until the kids are in bed is just barely 4 hours. Thats all I get with them on a daily basis as a full time working mother. So while a care giver and a school gets my children 7-9 hours a day I get only 4. I am thankful for the school system for my boys and for an amazing babysitter for my baby girl. I know they are well taken care of but its hard to know that in some aspects others have more time with them than me. So tomorrow if you see me with my tear stained, red, swollen face I ask that you merely say a prayer that I cope better every day and can eventually stop the tears and know that in doing what I need to do to provide for my family.
Posted on: Wed, 17 Sep 2014 01:56:52 +0000
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