What an emotional day! Today was the day for my mammogram. I dont talk a lot about my diagnosis back in 2010. Each October, although I appreciate all of the awareness that is publicized, it seems to make my appointment just a little more stressful for me. So I decided to treat myself to consoling food this morning and get a biscuit from Bojangles. Well, when I got up to the window, the nice lady said The lady in front of you just paid for your breakfast. We hope you have a happy day! Well I was speechless! When they handed me my food, I completely broke. All the stress came flooding out - for all 7 miles down the road to school! So I get myself together and go in and keep myself occupied with my 59 pre-teen darlings. At 11:15am, I get in the car and head to Charlotte. 485 was shut down and they were emptying onto Highway 74, right in Matthews where it bottle-necks on a normal day. So I had to call and let them know I was stuck in standstill traffic and would be late. At 1:25 I finally arrived. Im glad they were not checking blood pressure. They finally call me back, and one set of pictures are painfully completed. So I sit and wait for 25 mintues. She comes back and they need a second set of pictures. Even more painful this time as they are more exact with what they want pictures of. Back to waiting. I waited another 20 minutes. She comes back and they need an ultrasound. Thats when my stress level really escalated. Ive been down this road before....that is what makes it so very hard. She does the ultrasound and then leaves the room - me still laying there. The room has low-light. No sound whatsoever. Just my heart beating so loud it is hurting my ears. I try the breathing techniques I know work. Nope - nothing. So the doctor comes in about 20 minutes later to do yet more ultrasounds. I have more cysts than last year and she just wanted to make double sure they were ok. She smiles and says the beautiful words Its all good. We will see you in a year! Well I smiled to her. I smiled to the nurse. But when they left out, I absolutely fell to pieces. This time I was happy that it took her forever to get back into the room. So on the way home I realized lots of things....Im blessed beyond measure.....the leaves are really pretty right now.....I have another year to make a difference for someone...... So to everyone who has helped do something this month to raise awareness, those of us who have benefited from the improved technology for early detection, we say thank you from the bottom of our hearts! (Sidenote: I thanked the person at Bojangles - I happened to see her face in her rear view mirror so I knew her! She said that she started to do it yesterday but the man was irate and blew his horn at her so she changed her mind. She said that happened so that she would be there for me today! Hows that for a master plan in place! I needed her this morning - HE made sure she was there!)
Posted on: Thu, 30 Oct 2014 21:19:03 +0000