YES... I GOT A HAIRCUT... AND I CRIED THE ENTIRE TIME (Long post, but Keep reading if you want to know why) Its not everyday you walk into the local salon for a haircut and end up crying in the chair. But today was just one of those times when I felt like God spoke to me through a local friend. I realize that people in town are sharing about our choice to move to Florida later this fall/winter, and they realize this isnt something that Ive taken lightly, that I LOVE this small little town and ALL of the people in it. And that leaving this place is like losing a parent, or a friend, or even a child... it HURTS DEEPLY to think about leaving, but its also exciting to think about what will come from making a courageous choice to leave home. Most moments I feel at peace about this choice, but there is always that big question of whats gonna happen? can I handle this? is this the right move? Today my beautician looked me dead in the eye and said Tommy, it is TIME for you to GO.. you have things to do and places to move on up into. And what God needs you to do cant be done here. Its time to go brother, its time to make this move and flourish your family. I can tell you that hes been telling you to go and that now is the time to do it... youve got big things to do Tommy, and quite honestly you just cant do those things from here. and thats when I broke... and the tears came, and my voice got shakey, and I knew that everything God has been saying to me was being AFFIRMED from that Best Cuts chair today... The truth is if this were solely up to me, I would never leave. But its not, the truth is my life is not my own, its not about me anymore... Staying would be playing it safe, and god didnt give me this warriors heart and courageous soul to do the safe thing. I told ash months ago that if God wanted us down there he would make the path clear and narrow with no obstacles, and I gotta tell you thats held true this entire time. I dont know what his plans are, all I know is that whatever he needs from ME is going to require our family to be THERE, and that time will tell truth. See, we often want a GUARANTEE of what will come. Its hard to make a difficult choice on FAITH ALONE. We often here the voice telling us to make a move but we become paralyzed by the FEAR of change and the FEAR of judgement and failing and the fear of new and the fear of not clearly seeing the end of whatever road he is leading us down. FEAR is not to be a master of our choices. Am I afraid? my first instinct is to say yes, but when I look deeper I know that FAITH is stronger than fear. and HE fed my FAITH today through the words spoken to me while getting my haircut. And I dont know where this path leads, but I do know that while this is gut wrenchingly hard for me to even think about leaving home, that its the right call, and that its what god wants and needs for my family and for me to move into the next step of his plan in our lives. Whats crazy is that 3 years ago I wanted nothing to do with God, I had my middle finger up to him for years and after a painful childhood I had lost faith that he even cared... But now I am consciously aware and am learning to just OBEY!! Vanessa Casullo Ashley Mygrant Dan Higgins
Posted on: Thu, 26 Jun 2014 17:10:40 +0000