Ya know...as a mom...i lay in bed at night and think...i should have seen it. I should have seen she was sick....i should have hounded her dr. Well with the help of time hop...i can honestly say...i did know she was sick...and i begged and begged and begged for a doctor to listen. Nearly every day theres a post about her throwing up..crying in pain..calling the dr..etc etc.. we were constantly trying to help her.... Dear God...please help me to forgive not only myself...but doctors as well...cause right now...im very angry. How loud does a mother have to scream. I knew it in my gut. I should have taken her to other dr.s.....but between her ped and numerous er visits.. i let them convince me they knew better than a mothers instinct. I should have listened to that voice inside of me. Ill never EVER make that mistake again. What a horrible price to pay. I hope those dr.s learned a lesson as well....so that maybe next time theyll listen to the mom...and save a child. I need to pray...alot...because being consumed with guilt AND anger...helps nothing.
Posted on: Sun, 20 Jul 2014 12:42:34 +0000