Yesterday was a strange day. First let me say I quit smoking. It has been a week since I have had a smoke and I have been a smoker for MANY years. Quit once about a year ago then I let finals in anatomy and physiology get the best of me and I was smoking again. So with that said...I was driving and drove past my Great uncles house. My papaws only living sibling (that I am aware of). So, out loud I said, I wish I had known how much I loved you Grandpa, while you were still here with me. Of course I loved him while here on earth but as a child/adolescent I was not aware of the depth of that love. I miss him. More than anyone could ever know. Then a heavy day at work. I got a message at work from my brother. I responded and checked my messages. I always knew as a child I had a half sister somewhere in CA but that was all I knew as my biological father was only a stranger to me. I had heard her name over the years and ofen wondered what she might be like. If she was anything like me and Thomas. I always feel lucky, when I think about my father. I say that because I had my papaw. I never felt without. I never REALLY felt that void. I knew I didnt have a Dad but I never felt like I didnt. Anyway, there she was. In my inbox. Of course I was excited to see this and read her message and I happily responded to her. At the same time, it stirs up emotions which, in me, tends to cause a chain reaction. I cannot seem to be emotional about one thing without going ahead and feeling ALL of them...lol. So, that is a journey yet to be had and I am happy it has begun. Now every song on the radio seems to be singing to me right? From Kelly Clarksons you dont know a thing about me song to Lean on Me. Then I get the story about Robin Williams. My family has dealt with suicide. I know how it feels to be on this side of it. I hope I never know how the other side feels. EVERYONE, every.single.person you know has battles. We do not have to or need to know them. Just love them. Even when you do not want to. Even when you have no reason to. Even when it is hard. Even when it is ugly. Love them. Every breathing, heart beating human belongs to someone. If you are that someone make sure they know that, please. Ok, I am done. Send me good and positive energy, shew I know I need it!!
Posted on: Tue, 12 Aug 2014 16:00:20 +0000
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