You Know i had to sit and really think hard last night ,, with what i read,, sometimes it only takes 1 word to change dynamics ,, of what you thought you knew and how u knew it and felt it was completley wrong. Then you sit back and you question your self , is what I am doing real? how I am feeling real? or is it just a illusion , a figment of my imagination. Thinking and feeling what i feel or how I feel it or what I know and why i know it ,, I am not going to say I am smart because I am not I make mistakes, I am not going to say I am perfect because no one in this world is perfect, What i do know is i am solid as a rock , and i swore to my self , 1 last try at this twinflame saga.. for some reason i guess i am to sensitive and get hurt way to easy,, so I have decided it is only me and the kids twinflame or not I will go at this spirituailty myslef . and do what i do best and that is love and guide,, I wont let no one bring me down ever again,, I also will not be hurt ever again buy another man in this life time .. I am tired of being hurt and i have learned many lessons of being hurt,, unfourtantly there will not be a next time , no matter how bad the push and pull of this twinflame stuff is .. But I am not putting myself out there to be hurt any more,, unfortuanly being the way I am I will never love another the way I loved and love my twinflame ,, so to be with another man or my x , it can never happen .. my words last night where of hurt and dissappointement in me and my twin, Part of me is human and feels a great pain deeper then what I have ever felt in these last two years ,, its not ego not pride ,, to me it is just plain stupiditiy on my part.. You are either with me on this mission ,, or you are with out me ,, your choice to me I have done all myself my whole life and my past lives,, so it really is nothing new to me,, and like the old saying goes actions speak louder then words,,, I have poored my heart out showed uncondituional love a love i thought i have never had, I have sacrficed and i have hurt people ,, to make sure i keep that connection nice and strong,, But you know when reailty sets in and you think with your mind and not your heart ,, you know it has been a big game ,, and you are a laughing stalk ,, and can you believe this person , and how she is ,,, the big pitcher sometimes is what hurts the most when you realize it was a game and playing with peoples emotion , making them believe something that was not true ,, while you sit back and laugh and think its funny,, then go home to a warm body to love on,, you see if you got it and understood being a twin flame you wouldnt care you would of found your other half , and you would make it possible for both , as i have cleared the way for you,, , you have yet to clear the way for me... but that is okay , if you havent got it by now you will never get it,, so you can leave those blocks up and dont clear them.. however you look at it im in too deep and know what i have to do, and how to do it,, and i will do it,, i wont let my Twinflame stop me ,, and i wont let no human stop me.. So i will go on and when you are ready ,, maybe i will be here or in another state who knows,, But I have stopped my life for you for almost 2 yrs .. or for who ever is playing with my head and emotions and i dreamed but now its time to stop dreaming and get real,,, what I can say being who you are you will never find true love you will always squirm and you will never be satisfied, and any woman who wants to be with you will only be for your name and dollar signs,, think about it... they will never know your heart or your soul like I do.. and all I want in return is love,,, nothing else,, just love is all I ask .. sometimes that is to much to ask for ,, when ego and society play with minds,, but it is okay,, I will be off now and i wont bug you no more ,, from here on out i will let you walk alone on your spiritual journey ,, but let know I will always be imbedded in your soul,, because i refuse to subject myself to so much pain in breaking the chords,, so its up to you know,,, But let me make this clear I will not be hurt ever again by a man,1 and i will never love another 2 and i will not be second to no one,,I have always been on the back burner ,, and now it is my time,,, its all or nothing,, time has come,, with love your Twinflame, Dusty
Posted on: Sat, 15 Nov 2014 22:04:46 +0000
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