You know what really bugs? Im about to vent a little and Im sorry if it gets to people, but since this is my past, I feel like its safe to vent on it. Ok. Here goes. It bugs me to know I opened my heart to someone once and for all. Once a huge no no in my life. So much as to carry and have a child. So much as to induce my labor so he could be a part of it like he wanted to, only for him to turn his phone off and not be apart of it at all. To come in and leave just as fast. I let someone in who was able to hold a relationship with me and another female at the same time. Who was able to take money from me because I believed I loved him enough to help, only to find out his other woman was there when he got it. Smh. It bugs the hell out of me to have opened my heart to someone I really believed I loved and made sacrifices for only to realize I was the dummy being used and played. It bugs the hell out of me to have allowed myself to open up and now pay the consequence of having to start all over again, this time with a broken heart. This was the stupidest thing Ive done in a really long time. I can go for days but the amount of disrespect goes for days and I dont have that much time or energy. Ive been letting go every day and I admit I am feeling stronger every day. I just dont understand why things had to be the way they were and as disrespectful as they got. It amazes me. Thats my vent session and Im feeling really discouraged by my very own decisions to be spit on over and over again...Im not saying Im a saint because I never took this shit, I had to hold my own in this also. But Im just so hurt with myself that I had to give my heart to someone who played with it and spit on it right in front of my face and behind my back. Horrible. Thats true hurt when u sacrifice the world and get spit on in return. Nice thanks.
Posted on: Sat, 18 Oct 2014 00:54:13 +0000
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