da feeling u get when u have nothin and errbody mistreats you. does dat hurt more den da feeling u get when u get a lil bit ov sommin n some status in dis Dunya den errbody all ov a sudden wants ta be apart ov your life. sometimes i wonda.sometimes i...wonda. i find it real sad how people treated me when I had nothing. now I got sommin its still sad how u wan treat me. they hate me when i couldnt give em nothing. now they wan love me co they heard I got sommin. sometimes i...wonda. sometimes. I wonda. I was hungry for so long. I watched dem eat. infront ov me. but i lowered ma gaze. den God Blessed me wid more food den I could ever ask for. but wen I take this Blessing in da Dunya outside world. errbody iz hungry. staving. real staving even tho they might have sommin they just dont appricate what they have n when they see me with a lil sommin they want that. i used da food example co das real talk. how do i enjoy food when errbody walking past me i dont no if dey are hungry. i dont no if they havent eaten. prehaps its ma foult I should have eaten the food in da resturant but i was inna hurry. tryna catch ma train. so i decided to open one of the boxes n eat. because I was hungry. but errbody walked past me. i felt soo bad. to a point ma guilt was greater then my hunger. so i put alway the food I had.sealed the bags a tighly as I can so no wan could smell what was in the bag. i wanted to just give errbody what i had.in the bag. i looked around me. but now days people dont no u wan give em sommin so they look at u real horrible. real mean. but i wan give u sommin but da way they look at me just makes it real difficult to share with themthis food God Blessed me with. forever greatful for the little that I have. I asked God please forgive me I should have eaten that food in the resturent but I didnt because I was inna hurry. Lesson learned. I got onto my train. belly rumberling. i wanted to open one ov the bags. but i was like NO. BEHAVE. co u dont no who will get on the train and you dont no who is one the train. you dont no der story. they could be hungry or they cud just be badminded and want what u have just because it smells good. when ur belly is full learn to behave and not want more. and when you belly is empty learn to have patience and be considerate ov others. so now i dont eat my food in public. specially public transport. please Learn from this. and be considerate ov others. God Willing may we all be forgiven for da mistakes and erros we make. I gues da testing didnt stop when I got the food. the testing is endless until ma last breath. God tested me and thank God I have been Blessed and given wisdom style.courage. and plenty more. I love it!!! my secret?!!! u may not believe me wen i tell you. all I did was Trust God. I didnt let go ov dat Trust. I always been a Muslim somebody who submitted to God. even wen ma Muslim and non Muslim braddaz n sisterz dissed me. disrespected me. judge me. hurt me and abandon me. i never lost or gave up my Trust with God. Neva!!!!!! even when people stepped on me I said God please dont allow ma heart to ever hate them for what I do not understand. please Lord forgive me for dis feelings i feel please remove it from my heart. errtime it happen i wanted to flippp oww n just scream!!! but whats da point. my shouts and my screams was only to God and only God alone eased my suffering. Stay Strong!!! Always a Blessing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted on: Sun, 15 Sep 2013 07:24:15 +0000
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