i STARTED FEELING SO LONELY IN ISOLATION that I was getting reallyafraid that would I have another episode of deperssion hallicunation in the past in order to fight it i started to fight it....i dint have a god in mind but something in my mind said xmas i am like what ? should i visit santhom church -should i light candles so many things i wa sooooooooooooooo confuuuuuuuused so i worked harder and thought will celebrate it am like hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmthat is nt enough jesus dsnt lk so happy. i thought what should i do .....i read n fb that smn ws sik and she was smn i appreciated so immediately opened her fb accnt and asked smn else dint respond probably he ws it was busy/upset any way point was i gt worried as body is so weak i get weak fast....hmmmmthen i thght let me sne her a healing jesus as chits gave me one when i ws in depression or trying times............I am looking at that and miling......so well I worked harder becos i saw her face next day early morning i got even more worried immediately started working on more gifts nw this had sm meaning deserved more as she appreciated me she sd in one of my dance rehaersals she asked gangu who is that charming lady she also asked when did i deliver lol she announced my name in public appreciating dance i was stressed as i ws in n out of court cases n police stations fighing fr my divorce health ws bad but i mainted myself just becos i wana dance so right after that my dads n my kidney failed........................................ so I wanted to appreciate her name is diana so the whole concept revolved n my worry fear extra like concern and more .......she is was my hope during dialysis as i wanted to get by her son...... any which way the whole concept took me to another leel something more i needed myself i wanted me to be appreciated i had so much time to killl i was miserable sleepless nights etc always maintaining a happy face fr others as everyn is so happy abt me i dont ever waa disappoint them with my words so i always smiled they all called me inspiration nw i want their freindships inspiration word tores me nw................ this is how the concept went instwead of paying it frwrd start paying backward first gift them gifts which were mere pass ons to their family emebers .......my first angel chitra whom i needed to drop as she asks too many qustions .........so well i sd sm things to her becos i never speak up i am like a baloon i burst loli do things fr everyn around me but fr myself i have always been like that............. gifts for diana is fr jesus -as i needed smn to pray chose-chitra my angel as i wanted her to send healing jesus so i ws paying back to Maam n chits and choosing chits 2 autistic nephews hwo are rillaint to give gifts as pass ons and the last gift was to her whih is just a simple quotation.......as usual she needs to know more i wanted to be anonymous i ended up telling the whole purpose chitra appreciate someone who appreciated me chitra gets a gift and more gifts whch were fr the sweethearts ashwin n aakash :) i had to drop chitra as she ws pushing me alot and i burst n hurt hear so diana received her gift plus pass ons to unknown faces but she needs to pray fr me at the end like right nw my bak is hurting ayyo need to lay down......hmmmmmmm so who gets a prayer chitras family who is also suffering we all suffer nthng wrong i that and chits is so much of of meer positiviy when she walks in my house everyn is so happy nywya leave that so now another level chitra-angel-diana-chosen one-passons anyn n everyn she knows i knew it will be her son and so many studemts offc workers etc church it will go smwhere i sd appreciate smn ......... finally this is what i did anaonymous-boomerang0 angel chits chosen ns maam nd pass on someone be appraeciated returns prayers fr poeple whom i have nt know heard of or met so i worked harder i prayed fr louisa whom i met in a boutique shilpi .........her story when she told me as i pay attention i knew smthng ws wrong she is def upset....asked her she burst just like me.........looks soft tender coconut waterlol her young son went fr an interview to discover he has terminal cancer he died at 21 a young age cant rememeber and becos of whch her hybby never expressed n he had a heartattack he died recently she ws lonely n she tod me abt meeting catherine a terminaly ill cancer patient abandoned so i made sure i tell this to chits and ws i was the brain child of uttaran whch emans nothing to me sounds so beautiful poeple started soubtingas they found teh emaning n they askd sakthi to cahnge i gt annoyed n asked chitra she sd uttaean is pop in chennai so leave it mean it like poeple who are abndoned are beautiful louisa meets catherine as she misses her son i am too weak n catch infections n i sent em the presentshahahahahahhaha anywya so now u know maam why i chose you to come out my miserable dipu what i call depression which i will never have because i see signs like no other in ths universe i am really a genius but ia m human i hurt smppl including myself n the way tasneem akbari loves pink s she shares the same bday with pink so i cant find a song i am tired as i am making otehrs smile by playing videos as i dint wana hurt em i get hurt and finally hurt em u knw thats hw i m tryn to change........i dedicated her aerosmith out of tiredness dedicated i dont wana miss athing now i am dedicating smthng very smart which i am pink by aerosmith ....... she gave me 2k a sponsor she sd pray for her miseries she needs her business pik up asap..............................she is suffering prayers fr her fr m me passing n this song to make her day paying it back and frwrd I want everyone to share this video in everyns walls with UNIVERSE I BELIEVE I AM FINE need you to educate sponsor someone or the other leavves my choice to u choose anyn must please work work work im workng harder each moemnt HELP ME......................ty its never a compulsion you can say yes or no that dsnt mean god does t love me he ds i just need to ask god n let go pf my past you can always ask again frm d ns you hear no frm they might say yes or no if they keep confsusing move to the enxt thats it open your minds choose my words give me wings to fli ana rest a bit Inspiration Little Thankyou offical https://youtube/watch?v=RQa7SvVCdZk
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