insert 8 we arived just before midnight and i stil had my uniform on, i was too tired to take a bath or eat, i just wanted to sleep and wake nomore, my sister came in as i was busy taking off my uniform, sisf: are you hungry? me: no i just wanna go to sleep, am too exhausted to eat sisf: hauw? =-O since when do you get tired to eat? me: since i found out i was living a lie, who knows everythng might change around and in me sisf:(in a calmed voice) oh sweety you wernt supposed to know until you turn 18 me: wel now i knw right? sisf: are you ready ? me: yah lets get it over with. sisf: i was just your age when i fou....... ( i interupted her) me: no stop! i dont want to hear it ( i started pacing around the room) sisf: just let me finish please... itll kill you not knowing and am not ready to loose my munskin, me: you found me? sisf: yes i found you baby (she was now in tears i could tell it was very hard for her as much as it was to me) me: where did you find me? was it the hospital? did you steal me from my mom?? they loved me didnt they? they are probably looking for me as we speak, we need to find them fifi,(at some point i realised that she found me in a disadvataged place, i knew i was thrown away like yestedays gabbage, i mean it happens all the time right but i didnt want her to say it, i wanted her to tell me what i wanted to hear, that they still care and they are devastated looking for me day in day out,) sisf: i told you that i went to a boarding school right? and we only allowed to go home on decembers right? (i nodded in agreement) well father had come to pick me up and i heard you crying in a plastic bag me: NO!! YOU LYING TO ME ( my tears stopped flowing, i literally skiped a heartbeat, i grasped for air but my windpipe failed to function, i reached for a chair but u heard a loud bang on my heard, everthing just went blank, i could feel my body being shaken but i was too weak to respond, my mind kept visualising a plastic bag, how cruel is that? to put a baby in a plastic bag, a BABY for Christ sake, i was gently picked up and placed on my bed, i felt a cold towel cover my forehead, there we go :-) goodnight munskin my door closed, and i immediatly dozed off i woke up two hours later, i couldnt sleep, so i sat on my bed and watched the darkness slowly fading, my eyes where just too tired, maybe i should close them for a while, a note slided in from my door, get some sleep coz weekend you gonna have the time of your life, love fifi
Posted on: Sun, 06 Jul 2014 05:01:24 +0000