ok whos the jokester....someone just sent this tome and I want to know who ...this is not funny.... I wont tell you were this came from...or even who i am....but i had a dream... and it led me to you...i dont know why... i closed the door and sat down to pray...clasping my hands so tight my knuckles were white...i intended to burst into desperate prayer...i was going to tackle, wrestle, and grapple with God....crying out in earnest suplication for your life your sanity....and his broken soul...i was going to bind and rebuke the powers of darkness and cast them out...i would be waging holy warfare in the heavenlies it was going to be a struggle...(before you pray) said the lord....i looked up it was quiet in the room...and suddenly strangly quiet in my heart.... it threw me...what happened? one moment i was ready to leap into the fires of hell and whip-in-the-spirit whatever evil foces might come my way...and the next moment ...well i felt as if i were sitting in heaven...i saw nothing unusual..no visions no angels....no lightning bolts or faces in the sky...the same cruel crazy world was in full swing outside my door...cars still going by...people outside talking ...but i felt as if i were somewhere else...how can i describe it? Jesus was in the car with me...i would never presume to put words into his mouth but i felt him saying...could we take a moment to review... i put down the phone...closed my eyes...and listened... youve felt there was something surrounding me...something bad..maybe evil. ..i dont know it made the peace you felt all the stranger to understand..you would never have expected this enveloping sensation of rest...as if you were somehow seperated by a holy capsule from al that was occuring around me...it settled over you the moment your struggle was over and my options gone...the moment he ripped the last bandaid off and there was nothing more you could do but trust God... the place looked cozy and inviting...the porch light was on and warm lamplight created a glow behind the drapes....but it felt cold and sinister...and i knew there was evil inside...i stood by the gate for just a moment..gathering my thoughts and reviewing what the lord and i had talked about all the way here... that he and history were on your side...there was never a moment or aspect of your life that God didnt have his hand on....and this little adventure was no exception...all i had to do was let go and let God take it from there.... i knew i had others praying with me..i said a last prayer of my own...and stepped through the gate.... i had never reguarded myself as a man of keen spiritual discernment..sure i could usually get an inkling that something or someone wasnt right...it was my wife that could sense the presence of evil.....and be correct every time...i useto wonder and even ask her how she did it and what it felt like...tonight i didnt have to wonder i could feel a presence in the house as directly...as pungently as any man could feel a hateful stare or a poisonous taunt...i gazed at the drawn drapes as if the spirits might be looking bak at me from behind them..they were watching me...waiting for me. ..expecting me to play the game by their rules...come on in they dared me i continued through onto the porch...called out..there was no answer...although i did feel a painful twist in my gut...as if i were stepping off a cliff...i took hold of the doorknob...were ready they seemed to say.e on in...well im ready too i thought and were coming in....i turned the knob and the door opened slowly... the first thing i saw was you...and him..sitting in the living room..you crying him arrogant and assured that he wasnt wrong .....that he had no blame...you were breathing hard...shaking...and desperate and he had no emotion whatsoever... he said you werent here for the beginning of this...but you can see whos in charge.. shes afraid of me....and that makes me God...i said if you cant trust him be him? is that how it works?....he said...it works...i got what i wanted ever since a woman first hurt me...i hurt for him even in the midst of this despair...i hear you ...i said shes been hurt too....shes been there..and you are putting her there again...he looked at you...said no..i havent been hurt nearly as bad as you...i was discouraged...i was fed up...i said listen...youre both angry...youre both fed up...you both have wounds and questions...your pain was caused by someone else....her pain came from you..theres a difference... he looked at me...im perfectly happy blaming them both...i pressed it...hoping i wouldnt set him off...but you know she didnt deserve any of this....she didnt break you....shes held you...forgiven you...tried to help make you a better person ...i see Jesus in that....the hatred and loathing flowed into his face again shes the one who got weak..broke down...coudlnt cope...she loves losing... i said no...she wants to win..it just takes longer than you would like.... he said i love winning...i get what i want..i dont have to wait for it... i dont have to heal someone else...i have enough problems of my own... he walked out the door....then i looked at you...you were looking at something or someone...across the table from you...and directly in front of me..there was no fear in your eyes....do you see them? you asked....i looked around the living room and the kitchen...i saw nothing but the walls and cabinets....but i could feel my skin crawling....who are they?....you looked from one to the other naming them lust...envy...greed...glutony...then u looked angry...you said..they are laughing at him...just as they have been doing all along i thought....it felt like a puff of wind....but it wasnt...you gave a litte gasp and i could sense what you were seeing....evil was leaving the house....like a receding tide...the weight i felt the suffocating closeness of the room....lifted from me....pain ...bitterness hatred..arrogance..perversion..theyd all had their season...but now it was over....it was time....time to let go of what has beaten you down...let the evil follow him only he can chose to free himself of it..pain will follow him as long as he lets it...his pain and the pain he causes others...there is light in you dont let him make that go out....live...laugh...love...and when you meet your father in heaven...know that you did all you could...he was the weak one the one that abandoned you because he couldnt be the man he should have been all along.....if not for all of that you wouldnt have needed so much help to begin with....let it go...let God heal you...as only he can. he has always taken care of you...he always will
Posted on: Mon, 27 Oct 2014 01:08:12 +0000