sitting in my room been here for about 2 weeks heartbroken and depressed and sad feeling like I just want to give up on everything feel so lost confused and hurt feeling like no one cares about me in this world anymore feel like everybodys against me in this world anymore I have lost myself and my self motivation have not cared about what happens the next seconds or minutes dont really care if I die today or tomorrow yes I am really giving up on myself I feel like I dont have friends to be there that care hair so much negativity around me everyday how will I pull myself together with that type of environment have not ate in 3 days and Ive been bursting out in tears ever since that happen my heart is so so scarred right now I dont know what to do looking for love n care in all the wrong places but just never had it before guess thats why I want it so bad for someone to show me they care for someone to love me for who I am I cant do it by myself anymore sad to say but I really cant :( all my life Ive been on my own and I found that person that show me care and love, yes I felt it but never felt it before so hard feels like everybody gave up on me so now im giving up on myself because I need somebody with that care and that concern that love and that support that teamwork I will never probably never go back to her she left me in the cold in such a heartless way I cannot believe ! I remember times were I wanted love support from my family and all they said was I let them down because I feel short to the world they all make me feel like a big failure like I cant really make it in life so now do you see why I always wanted love because I always wanted a family and I never had one as I got older and a lot of people that know me as my friends know I was always searching for a family :( I could call out to my family but they will never be there. theres just too busy in life for me and everytime Im around them is awkward because I think they look at me like a failure if you only knew the rest but this is already so long for this its just making me cry more so since everybodys talking about me you want to know whats going on with my life there you have it still a failure :(
Posted on: Thu, 17 Oct 2013 03:10:37 +0000
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