this is my expression on myself . . . i thought that it would be secrete but now it broken in front all of you , , , , I have a problem with self expression; I can’t say exactly what I want to say or describe what I feel or reveal what is in my head. I feel that I give insufficient description or incomplete meaning of what I want to say; that is what I feel but from people’s facial expressions and from the rest of the conversation I get that they didn’t get what I wanted to say. In conversations (even non-serious ones) the words come out of my mouth almost non-understandable unless I rehearse them in my mind before I utter them. Then even when I rehearse and say something, I keep reforming it in order to make people get what I mean. When I was younger I didn’t talk much as I didn’t feel that I had to and I don’t like to talk a lot –I thought that I’m a quiet person and this is my characteristic I don’t have to change it – so whoever wants to deal with me like that, he is welcomed but who doesn’t then that is up to him, but when I started college I started to feel the impact of my quietness and limited talking, I didn’t have many friends and I couldn’t make new ones, I found a big difficulty in opening conversations with strangers, and I didn’t feel comfortable among people specially who are not like me- different in some way or another- so I ended the 4 years of college with no friends and, of course, I was lonely and depressed most of the time, I felt that I missed living the years of college (especially the happy moments that other people talk about when they remember their years at college ).I went to psychiatrist to try to solve this problem; I got a lot better but the problem didn’t disappear. Then, when I graduated and started searching for a job, I also found difficulty in expressing myself – what I can do, what are my strong points and what I’m good at. I always feel that I want to say more and don’t find the right words and feel confused whether to say it or not. Now, at work, sometimes I feel that if I had said something in a certain situation that could have been useful to me but the moment had passed; when I want to say something to someone I have to rehearse what I want to say so it takes from me time and effort.May be that problem is due to the fact that all my family members except my sister and mother have a verbalization and communication problem, especially my father who I feel is the source of the problem, he doesn’t have many friends and doesn’t like to socialize with people very much.However, there are some people that it’s easier to express myself when I’m talking to them, my family and when I get comfortable with someone.I need to know how I can practice on self-expression and how I can practice arranging my thoughts to make them come out in the way I want.
Posted on: Tue, 18 Jun 2013 17:38:05 +0000
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