uh, i just feel the need to let off a bit of steam. so, i had the opportunity to play in 3 separate shows over the next month, each of which i consider to be HUGE. but in a massive stroke of absolutely unrelenting unluck, ive been schedule-blocked out of one event because of work, venue-flaked out of the second, and ousted out of the lineup of the third without warning. i dont blame anyone involved in any of those events because these developments have been mostly circumstantial. and im not going to divulge any more info about the situation because it would be unfair to the folks that are honestly good people trying their best to get things to happen. but what i DO want to convey is my frustration about the broader context of these individual developments, which is that all these opportunities vaporized in front of my eyes in the span of a couple of weeks. to be completely honest this has felt like getting pummeled in the boxing ring, over and over, in the face, with a jackhammer. for some reason, this sort of thing happens to me a lot. for every event that you have ever seen my name get featured on (which is rare), there have been 5 others that were supposed to happen. technical glitches, lineup screwups, event cancellations, botched promotions, you name it. and even for the events i did play -- things happened in such a way that i almost didnt get to. i dont know if this sort of thing just happens to be the name of the game for everyone else, in which case, please let me know that im not special when it comes to these things. but for me its almost as if my very person constantly emits a powerful field that tears upcoming events asunder. and im just now starting to get a little sick of it. look. I really try to maintain myself as a person relatively unburdened by ego or grudges or negativity. and all else being equal, i really have had some AMAZING fortune this past year (getting to play in australia and japan for example). but still, if ever i were to give myself an opportunity to vent, _just once_, it would be right now. its.. its just so frustrating. on a related note: if its not already apparent now, im totally available for shows abroad. talk to me if you want to set something up.
Posted on: Wed, 13 Aug 2014 22:08:02 +0000
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