well all. I could be better. I have been dealt some terrible news. my sis ( not by blood ) was pregnant and just before she could deliver, the baby dies. I cant even imagine what is goin thru her mind and her heart right now. I tried to be there for her the best I know how but evidently it isnt enough. she is blaming this whole thing on me......and thats ok. I understand her blaming me cause when you are distraught over something like this it is only human that a person would react like this. i know some of you might not understand why i say its ok. but, the best way i can describe it to you is this......... love. few who know me very very well would understand. when you love someone so much, you would do anything for them and be hurt by them endless amount of times just to still be around and be there for that person when he/she cries for you to come save them from whatever. this is my fate. this is what i have been dealt so far in my life and i accept it without regrets. its like i told my best friend earlier today! i would rather her hurt me physically until she is too tired to go on, cause physical pain is nothing to me and it goes away without much effort, but the emotional pain is what i cannot bare. she not only blames me for everything she also told me that i am nothing to her and wants nothing to do with me and doesnt want to talk to me anymore. words are what hurts and i have cried plenty today alone. but nonetheless i will be there for her when she calls me or text me, my arms will be waiting to hold her in them once again and make her feel that everything will be alright cause she is safe with me, and most importantly......... she will never see my tears, feel my pain she causes me, or feel my heart break everytime she breaks it for i hide this from her cause.......she may be fine with hurting me but i am never fine with hurting her. thats why she will never see me hurting. THAT is what love is my friends.
Posted on: Sat, 23 Nov 2013 02:57:55 +0000
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