whoop, vent time before I do the spam I know its bad to be jealous and bitter and all. But I hate that not many care about me. I have a handful of friends. Only one I speak to daily. But if I were cute and nicer and prettier, people would care. But Im not. Im invisible. I forget how lonely I am so often. I dont have friends. Just the thoughts in my head which eventually circulate to bad thoughts. I just want to be as important to someone as they are important to me. But that wont happen because Im not important, Im replaceable. A lot of people will disagree because every life matters which is true. however, living but feeling dead is awful. Its being in a rut every day. The same thing every day. Not speaking to anyone because Im not approachable or Im too scared. Hell, most of you arent even gonna read up to here... I dont want to be alive so often. Its so easy to get rid of the pain. But its wrong and Im not supposed to. I used to self harm though and its so hard to not do it anymore... my hand is bruised from biting it to avoid cutting. I just am really tired of all this... So... yeah. Sorry for being whiny again. Im probably gonna delete this soon...
Posted on: Wed, 14 Jan 2015 00:51:13 +0000