you know what? I can do without the helpful comments about how I am handling my life. especially since absolutely every individual who has felt I am unsuccessfully living my life and dealing with my decisions, has never been in my situation. they are all married (i.e.- you have someone to stand by you in EVERY SITUATION IN YOUR LIFE, and i am doing this solo), have a high one income or combination of two- while I am not in any tax bracket. Are healthy and unencumbered -free from major illness and trauma- I wont even list mine. I didnt ask for things to be this way folks. i didnt ask to be thrown out, didnt ask to have a stroke, didnt ask for a life thrown upside down. am I bitter? hell yes. II defy anyone to say they have never been bitter about anything. I have lost much of my memory of my past- I grasp only bits and pieces, and small ones at that. So while you are pushing me to move on- I am void of much of my history you want me to move on from... it is scary as hell. and if i am not happy, or jovial, if i seem pensive, or blunt or sad or depressed, I do not apologize for that. at least i am being real. you never have to wonder who I am as a person, or what I stand for or how I feel?. and i am doing the best I can at this moment. I am scared and unsure, worried and concerned, and totally out of my element. I live moment to moment- no planning ahead. I just try to get through the day. That may appall some, annoy some, disgust some, and frustrate some. welcome to my world. I am asking nothing of anyone, except not being examined and critiqued - shut me out, erase me, block me, delete me. i am who I am.
Posted on: Mon, 31 Mar 2014 19:19:39 +0000
Trending Topics
Recently Viewed Topics
© 2015