And here I am, seven weeks later, a year later, six days later, - TopicsExpress

Amanda Trusty

And here I am, seven weeks later, a year later, six days later, all measurements of time in which its all changed and its all happened and its all meant so much and forty thousand tears and eighty-five hugs and sixteen Yeunglings later Im different and Im the same and Im more musical and Im less sad and Im increasingly aware and Im a whole different body and my roots are grown out dark, some gray, and Im so in love with people and places and times and the memories would fill books and books and its all because life is fleeting and hard and gorgeous and changing and I have finally accepted that I am the same. Im fleeting and Im hard and Im gorgeous and Im changing and I think it will take me the rest of my life to figure out why that is so and as I get older and my joints crack and my skin creases around my eyes I will always have the forty thousand tears and the eighty-five hugs and the sixteen Yeunglings to remind me of where I come from and how real it all was and I know that it hasnt always been what I wanted but thats why swimming with the sea turtles means so much. I love it all and without the broken heart and the sound of honking taxis and the construction workers whistle it wouldnt be the same and I would never want that. The bus is so cold and all I want to do is sleep while I recount every hour of every experience and I know that there is pie waiting for me in moms kitchen along with forty thousand more tears but what would it all be without that thing that causes tears? Im so thankful for the missing and the aching and the heart being torn away from its home to go live in another one and the best news, is that at the end of these weeks, there are eighty-five more hugs waiting for me, little arms and much aloha and generous hearts waiting for me, and maybe the reason I am fleeting and hard and gorgeous and changing is because I can fall into the arms of another heart and another place and another time and be welcomed there with pie and forty thousand more tears and know that in seven weeks, a year, six days, I can always come back to where it all started and sit down across from sixteen hands holding Yeungling and it will be just the same as it ever was.

Posted on: Sun, 20 Jul 2014 15:25:28 +0000

And here I am, seven weeks later, a year later, six days later, - TopicsExpress

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