Anybody who knows me for a long time, knows how much i love people in all their variety, and how i used to enjoy being at gatherings and around all the wonderful people. Nowadays, it seems i try to be alone most of the time. I will try to do service for people in need and then just move on. If i cannot raise the funds for some reason, i can say that i honestly tried, and then can live a quiet, relatively isolated life near a close friend or three. What can i say, i was just too susceptible to manipulative people in this life, and i am very wary about getting close to anyone anymore. I do what i say, and i am constantly fooled by talkers and wanters. This is my last big effort. If i can build something, great! If not, i wasnt a phony and i put my money and energy where my heart and statements were. We shall see. I am going through the motions as ethically and real as i can. I lack marketing skills. I dug wells, i cleaned up a charity hospital, i fixed some temples, i made a couple large donations, and smaller ones to two super org.s that take care of animals and HIV orphans (and whom i will try to help for the rest of my life). Made great connections and some sincere new friends. Today, it looks like i will avoid the fun party my friends are having and just sit in my hotel room in Kathmandu, enjoy the cool breeze and fog, and watch tv as long as the electricity holds out. I guess it is a shame that a natural extrovert and true lover of people and the worlds intricacies and spreader of joy and laughter has gotten to the point that he would rather sit alone in a hotel room, but I guess that happens to some of us. Anyone who knows me knows i tried to fulfill anything they asked of me if possible. Except for service and maybe dancing, i mostly want out of the gauntlet of false judgments, manipulation, social games and all these skilled me, me, me-ers whom i am at a disadvantage with because of my lack of cleverness and ..... If these efforts to make WE ONE into a viable non-profit dont work, at least i tried, and i can live a simple life with a clear conscience.
Posted on: Sat, 07 Jun 2014 06:48:17 +0000
Trending Topics
Recently Viewed Topics
© 2015