As i sit here and think to myself what have i done! Who have i become in this life.... Its not who i wanted to be.. Its not wo i wanted to turn out to be...i know my dad would not be proud of me for the way that i have treated my mom and i know he wouldnt but i know he would be proud of one thing... nd that is the heart that he gave me he gave me this heart to love unconditionally no matter who hates me or dislikes me and that is one thing he did give me hegave me love and he gave me hope and he gave me the best mother that i could ever ask for... you know when i found out you were gone eric jhon pearson i didnt want to believe it... i always thought that one day when i turned 18 i would be able to meet you i would be able to come and seee you and ask you alll these questios that i had in my head..like why did you leave me and mom and sissy? Did you not love me? did you not care? how hard was it for you to walk away from your children? how easy was it for you to marry that other woman...? Did you care about me at all? Did you even want me? Did you even care to know that i was hurt? Did you care to call... No you didnt and i dont blame you for that because you brought the best dad into my life and his name is Jeff Scala... Im proud to call him my DAD he is a reall man unlike you eric.. you left when times got rough. he hasnt he still loves me yes i have put him threw shit and i know i have but not once has he ever ever turned his back on me he is still proud to call me his DAUGHTER.... UN LIKE YOU... I HAVE BEEN HOLDING THIS IN FOR YEARS AND YEARS AND YEARS AND IM DONE HOLDING IT IN.... IM LETTIN GO im moving on with my life... im letting go of all the hate and the anger and the hurt that you have put in me.... you have ruined my heart from letting anyone into it and im done im putting you into the past eric... you are no longer a part of me and while i wrote this i cryed i did but you willl not have the restrain over me no longer... Im going home to be with my true family who has never once bailed on me like you did... you are no longer a burden on my chest... it feels like 10,0000000 lbs has been lifted off my chest.. Im proud to say i love my life and i love the people in it :) i couldnt ask for a better mom who has helped me even when everyone has given up on me Vikki Scala, a sister who yes we have wanted to rip each others throats out lol Bridgette Barr but she is still my sissy and i will kick some ass for her lol and then there is the rest of my family who has given me faith to keep going.. i love you guys and i hope you all know that :)
Posted on: Mon, 30 Sep 2013 08:59:40 +0000
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