As you know, Ive been fighting with my God for the past bit. I have been struggling with my anger because I think that he hijacked my life in so many ways. My own cancer, the death of my friend Cath this past June from cancer, the loss of so much of what I have based my identity on, has all been striped away. I have been feeling a lot like Job and trying to live like Job in the process of it all. So when things are rough as my life has been I am looking for the gratitudes in my day whenever possible, and trying to turn the negatives inside out to become a positive. Sometimes I hear the whisper inside of me echo, do you still trust me? My answer is always yes I trust you, even if I dont like the path, I still trust you and will follow. I am internally in dialog with my God continuously in my now... This is such a beautiful song. My communications no matter what they are joyfully or anger are always my prayers. I dont always like what life gives, but I am always grateful to my maker who gives it to me. I have been practicing stretching towards the starfield my whole life. Miracles happen in the darkness to show me that there was always starlight.
Posted on: Sat, 24 Jan 2015 04:18:37 +0000