Ayleen says: Hello there! Im a full time mom to a 14 months old baby girl. I need some advice..i will try to make this short, and i would appreciate that if any of you take the time to read this, you give me a positive response. Im 20 years old, and feel that i dont understand life much. My mom came to this country when i was a kid so her grandmother took care of me until i was 12 years old i came to live here. Well, a week ago my moms grandmother passed away...i knew this moment had to come but of course you never expect it. I lived with her since i was born, i was always with her, she was a more than a mom to me. Im having a difficult time right now because she was my everything, i always said that the day she left the world i was going to leave right behind her because of the love i have for her i knew i couldnt handle that pain..well, of course now i dont think like that because i live for my daughter..i love her, but i feel depressed, i feel empty because a part of me is gone. I couldnt eat, sleep, or play with my daughter for the first two days even though i tried because my daughter needs me. I would like to know if anyone has gone through this. Now i feel that since she is gone i dont have a reason to call my family or even go to my country. I feel that my life is not complete. I tried calling and remembered that she wasnt going to pick up the phone and it just broke my heart. I know shes resting now, but i cant take this. I thank God that she was never ever sick, and that she died in peace. She was about 100 ! I feel guilty that i wasnt there with her [i saw her on august and she met my daughter..meaning, her great-great granddaughter]. Life goes on but i dont know what to do at this point. What can i do to become the person i was before? I feel mad, irritable and my daughter has become so clingy lately. Sorry if i made this long but i had to let this out and i could even write a book. Please i need some advice..i dont want to feel like i am a bad mother.
Posted on: Tue, 19 Nov 2013 14:20:43 +0000
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