Can I be real for a moment to talk to you all about some real shit? People call me JP, my brain is inflicted with depression and an addictive personality. I try really hard everyday to be happy and feel blessed, but it is not that simple (despite all the praise and support my group gets). I drink. I smoke. I think sometimes the world would be better off without me in it. This is not a cry for help. Its a daily struggle getting out of bed and pretending Im happy. I am happy. Most times. Sometimes. I guess I just fear sometimes Im gonna let you down. I dont want to let you down. Im not going to let you down. I want to, or that is.. my brain says I want to let you down. I hate myself, not really.. Im too self absorbed to hate myself. I guess thats all I have to say about that. Ok bye.
Posted on: Fri, 05 Dec 2014 05:13:00 +0000