Congratulations to my oldest daughter, Mackenzie Clodfelter, for the award of Student of the week during the week of Homecoming at NDSH. Folks, I dont believe any one of you know what capacity this had an effect on me. Mixed emotions definitely. Proud, most definitely, but not because anything, well, not one thing I contributed to her success. When my father died, my Him had made the comment, IT! Was a Mother to you and your brother, it is time for me to be a grandmother. I never really thought about that until I received a letter from Mackenzie stating, She loved Nana, but needed her Mom, and she had.one wish, that I would make it to her high school graduation clean & sober. and that I had missed out on her 1st day of Kindergarten, all our family vacations, my neice & nephews boyfriends & girlfriends, their proms. What does a person say? Sorry just isnt enough, but Kenzie will get her wish if the good Lord sees me through till then. I will be there discreetly, but I will see my baby girl walk. My Mom has dine a tremendous job teaching, providing stability & structure, morals & standards, love & nurture to her. Everything she gave me & my brother. I have not walked into not 1 of my familys homes in 14 years, got any phone calls when someone died or was ill. Totally shut out. I would have went back, but the shame & guilt was too overwhelming. Even though I have paid my debt to society; prison, jail & most of all lying down at night and forgiving myself knowing what I neglected as a woman in my life. I just want to feel like Im a.part of, instead of the black sheep. But God has forgiven me and.I.am a better person, and I.pray they can forgive as well. Congratulations again Mackenzie. I have always & do love.you. Mom. #12- step program
Posted on: Mon, 13 Oct 2014 02:14:45 +0000
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