Couple of months ago I went through the toughest challenge Ive ever had in my life. I was feeling sad, lonely, lost, confused, anxious and heartbroken. I felt like I hit rock bottom that the only way out of it was to really seek God with all my heart. But was it really that easy? Not at all. But I did, because I had no where else to go. Yeah, I was already a Christian for 2 years, but only a Christian by name. My life was led by 60% emotions and 40% God, and everyone knows that it is not the way to go. I was in a situation where I felt hopeless and confused of what was happening. Why did this happen to us? Why did he leave me? Is this a test of our relationship? I battled with my emotions for a week. I made a real effort to find new friends and to surround myself with God-fearing people because I knew that I had to have a good support system to help me get through this. I started going to church regularly again, I kept looking for a small group, and I was genuinely studying the Bible for the first time. My faith in God drastically strengthened in just a few weeks and I was really seeing the difference in my life everyday. I had the thirst to learn more and more about the Word and even though I wasnt fully over my struggles, I was already proud to share what I have achieved so far. At this point, I have surrendered my whole life to God. I asked Him to give me the desires of my heart and promise to act out in faith. Sure, the sadness, fear and loneliness was gone but there was still confusion and anxiety. I was curious as to why God hasnt answered my question yet about why this happened to me and why my ex left me. I couldnt figure out if I should move on from all of this or if I should fight and not give up cause this was a test of our relationship. During this time, my faith was also tested non-stop. Every week God revealed things that made me want to step back and doubt Him, but my faith overpowered those emotions. These revelations made me realize that this was Gods way of changing my heart. Day by day He comforted me and showed me His plan for me. I reflected on Psalm 18:30 that said As for God, his way is perfect: The Lords word is flawless; He shields all who take refuge in Him. I understood every word of this verse and applied it to my life. True enough, after a few weeks I had an answered prayer. I finally understood why it never worked out with us and why he broke up with me. I was not aware that God had a bigger plan for me than I had for myself. And for that, I will forever be grateful. My walk with God now is closer than it was ever before and I still work on it everyday. Ive gained new friendships along the way which I know I can keep forever. My outlook in life changed together with my attitude and I am more appreciative of all my blessings. My testimony might be simple, but I still see it as a miracle. I never thought I would get through it that easily. I can honestly say that I wouldnt have done it without God. This is all just God. He fought the battle for me. We have all been raised and influenced by an ungodly culture. Nobody learns how to receive God’s best overnight. It’s a process, but we need to begin moving in that direction. I haven’t arrived there either, but I have left and I know Im on my way. God has far more for all of us than we are expecting. Glad to have shared my testimony to you guys. Thank you for all the people that surrounded me during those times up to now. You are truly Gods blessing to me. :) Matthew 6:33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all of these things shall be added to you.
Posted on: Tue, 02 Sep 2014 07:33:02 +0000
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