Earlier, I hd an allergy from the word “love”, I hate girls, moreover I hate ppl in reltnshps…was living like a boss n was happy to be single…At tht time whnever I see needy people or specially able ppl askng fr hlp, I ask my papa fr money…my papa always give money but I ask for more money…my papa always used to say me a dialogue “help them whn u hv ur own income”…hearing those dialogues from papa, a dream grew in me. I decided to only concentrate on studies, no matter how much I salary I get in future I will help those needy ppl at my best..i will dedicate my ntire life to them..will b a brother to those children those who hv lost their parents or dnt hv parents… but all of a suddn evrythng changed n the thing I used to hate, I fell in tht…“love”… got only pains..those pains made me the most unsuccessfull guy…Always in every test of life, I faild…I am a soft heartd person with delicate feelings…if ppl slap me or hurt me physically thts nt an issue bt if ny1 hurt my feeling, I cmpltly break down n I nevr forget tht…it always stay in my mind…these things r happning wid me fr last 2 yrs…bored of my failures.. sick of giving excuses..my dreams, aims, passions, desires- everything destroyed…I still remember those dreams, but the confidence n courage to full fill those dreams are no more left with me..i cry in vein..dnt knw wt to do nxt…ppl still behave with me as if am nt a human being…according to them I am the nly person to whom they can give all the pain… God creatd me to care for every1, but wen it cums to my turn there is no 1 for me to care… to every1 those who think I am the nly person who can bear all the pain which they give me- please dnt do that to me. i admit tht, I act as a strong person but honestly I am not tht much strng by heart..i am literally dying…whnever I make efforts to do good, everytime I get to hear stuffs that disappoints me a lot…eventually my mind get disturbed and those things kills me inside…all day long I think about those things nd frgt all about my efforts…plz don’t do this to me…hv pity on me…please dnt bhave with me like a dog, am a human being…in my ntire life I hv nt done anything wrng to ny1…always tried to hlp evry1..but y u do wrong with me?? was I born for this?? I too hv a life lik urs… plz feel fr me..No more strength left on me to please any1..i seek help…help me!
Posted on: Sun, 07 Jul 2013 09:25:33 +0000