Hi Everyone, First thing I want to do is thank everyone for all your thoughts and prayers this past week... The power of our human spirits combined is Unstoppable! As I sat down to write this I found myself completely overwhelmed with emotion...yes, crocodile tears flowed. That feeling you get after having finally broken through any Adversity. Down on one knee, feeling the effects on your mind, body and spirit after youve stayed warrior strong for so long... Glancing back on a year that has been nothing less tumultuous there is so many memories, oh my, so many memories... I want you to know So many of YOUR words to me over the past year will resinate within my Soul forever. Ive always been an Introspective person but in the past Ive not been one whos been that great at being Reflective. I was always too busy, pushing forward, taking on my next Adventure in Life... However, THIS time... I can say without question... is different. I have been convalescing in my bed for an entire week. Wow, a whole week gone just like that! And even with Dallas and my Mom so willing to be there to care for me, there are still those moments you have alone, to think... With something as daunting as Cancer, a person can spiral into a dark hole quite easily. But in staying true to myself, which, at times, took a lot of effort, I am making sure I look, respectfully, back in the proverbial rearview mirror, without dwelling on the past... Focusing now on slowly taking in the panoramic view of the front windshield and all that lays ahead. All while remembering, there is nothing more important then the Present! For so long, I did it so naturally for my Children (big choke)... Spouse... Family... Friends... but, yes, ultimately, Ive had to learn to do it for Myself. I want nothing but to live MY Life on my terms. Even though I cannot control what happens to me... I can control (insert DDP Yoga Team chant! Lol) How I react to it! Its been more then a year now since I found the lump and now, with recovery from surgery, it is crossing over into a second Holiday season. But... with a very different perspective. Last year, I was at the Starting Line, Giving Thanks for having been diagnosed so early with Breast Cancer. Dallas and I, looked at one other, smiled, holding each others hand tightly, said I Love You and jumped into the complete unknown arena of Cancer. This year I can say... we are once again Giving Thanks for it being Gods will to have me cross the Finish Line! And we are still smiling, holding hands and even though we tell one another how much we love each other all day long... no words are necessary when you have gone into battle with someone who Never wavered on their loyalty or love! None of this is to suggest my Adventure with Cancer is over. My Life will be permanently altered in many ways. Through any Life Threatening adversity one goes into survival mode that at times can drain everything their mind, body and spirit could possibly have to give. And over this past year, I at times pushed all 3 to the limits. But in the Big Picture of Life these experiences and changes will only have positive effects for Myself and hopefully for some of those around me as well... More update on my surgery later... I am going to spend the remainder of this cool, rainy day with Dallas and enjoy my mind wandering thinking about all the things I am grateful for. I promise you one thing... I will Hug you Harder the next time I see you!
Posted on: Sun, 23 Nov 2014 20:19:04 +0000
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