I am sitting here in the cool morning air! Watching the birds all around me as they inturn watch me. I am reflecting a lot of who i am, wherevi have lived and lead my life too. The things i have done to others. The path of rigtuoesness that i am choosing to follow. Its a painful but much needed reflection this morning. I have been gaurded about what i have posted recently, but i am going to drop the gaurd today! It is time to be free, of judgement, of condement, to let go and NO that God is truly my savior and HE is not judging me!!! My husband and i have lost much!!! Our home, his job, our belingings, our dignity, we are at the bottom!!! And yes, i have not wanted to say or admit this, we are HOMELESS!!! I spent a lot of the last few weeks hanging on by a thred! In my life, to my life and most importantly to GOD and my faith!!! I was asking, why me, why my husband, how could this happen to us? So many questions i could not find answers for!!! Only to learn, i may never find the answers, only God nos the answers and he will give them to when i need them and only then. As i traveled thru the last few months and i reflect on where things are now, i see the signs now that God gave to me, but i ignored!!! I can not live in the past. I have spent a lot of these last few weeks being angry!!! At me, at others, at the wotld basically!!! It has got me a whole lotta no where. So, as i have spent some quality time with some amazing friends the last couple of days, they have sent me on my way to a much needed path and journey that i seemed to have lost!!! Life is not what you can get from others but what you can do to serve you GOD and others around you, because once you have found that path of righteousness it is THEN and only then that your (me included) will find the meaning of happiness and being completely content and happy in your life!!! As i have fallen from grace and have allowed my faith to be tested and faltered i have had three angels in my life pushing for me to stay strong!!! So with this being said, it is with great joy and happiness that i say today i am changing!!! I am giving 110% of my love faith and trust completely to God my savior!!! I will not ever doubt again! I will not ever let go of my trust, my faith, i will no that HE is going to take care of me always!!! So in closing, i may be at rock bottom, but God is my grace, He will see me thru this as He has thru all others even when i refused to see it!!! I am blessed beyond my greatest desires and thank God for the ability to have yet another day and for the desire to sit and reflect as i have this morning!!! God is great!!! Moses my servant is dead. Now then, you and all these people, get ready to cross the Jordan river into the land i am about to give to the- to the Isralutes. I will give you every place you set your foot as i promised Moses. Joshua 1:2-3 NIV
Posted on: Wed, 24 Jul 2013 13:58:53 +0000
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