I am so blown away right now & my emotions are high (and yes I have taken my meds LOL). I probably should not have access to a computer right now because I am about to spill my heart out. First of all I have to thank the Great I Am, My Creator, the One I call God, the Powers greater than me, the Universe & I am a grateful believer in Jesus Christ. I am a spiritual person and right now Those powers greater than I are speaking loud and clear to me. I am profoundly grateful for last night and all nights before it for all that made it was made to be. This speaks volumes to me. While my emotions were climbing this morning I was reminded how the universe uses the people we love to speak to us. If you listen you can hear it loud and clear. I am eternally grateful for the gifts given to me & all of what has happened in my journey up until this second I hit post. There has been some extremes in both good and bad & there has been blood sacrifices to awaken me and turn my mind around. I have accepted that even in the most painful time of my life it was all for the greater good, it is for this big picture I can not see. For those times I am grateful, for the suffering and the heart break, the betrayals, lies, deceit and letting me fall from a false place far to high in my glass house built on the beach. This morning my spiritual leader spoke to me and said I need to slow down to stop fighting. I need to let go to move forward and work harder. I need to pick up the piece in my own yard. I need to stop lying to myself and destroying my mind with wrong thinking. When I think wrong everything else around me goes wrong, I talk wrong, act wrong, treat people wrong, I just flat out live wrong and it all starts with a wrong thought. These means I need to stop being angry. I have to accept that what I have been through has made me the person I am today. I need to start being more kind, when the beast comes from my belly I can beat it before it reaches my tongue. It all reall y starts from with in. The universe will provide. If you can do well with little then you will do great with much. This month is a tradition of mine to post what I am grateful for. This has been a helpful method to turn around a month that as a child made my skin crawl. I hated these holidays. The day after Halloween for me was all down hill. Then the universe continued to provide for what I need and gave me a son on Thanksgiving 2004. This turkey was something to be the most grateful for in ALL OF MY LIFE. This is not the first time I have been given by the heavens what I needed but this gift was wrapped in the most beautiful baby boy I could have ever asked for. Then as life does what it does November began to fill itself with anniversaries of life changing times November 5th and 22nd. My son was born November 25th and my love is on November 13th. Now November is on of the best times of year (now I need to work on December) Today is the 1st of November, The Day of The Dead. I have to honor a loved one who has passed. His life and death are still teaching me lessons even today. His spirit still has its place in my heart. His Karmic agreement and sacrifice for me will not be in vein or ever forgotten. Mylo Carl I honor you today. I am thankful & grateful for your life & your death. If you have taken the time to read this then you really do give a shit about what I have to say. Some of this might not make any sense & some of it might hit home. All I know is from the bottom of my heart I am grateful for so much I am going to try and fit it into 30 days. The final thing my creator told me was to JUST BE. I love all of you that took the time to read this. It is because of you I feel like I am doing something right.
Posted on: Sat, 01 Nov 2014 22:51:21 +0000
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