I am typically a person who has zero difficulty writing my thoughts or feelings about anything that I am experiencing. Yesterday when Brett called me while I was on my way to pick up Jehryn, and told me that Michael was gone, I shut down my emotions immediately. I was in disbelief. I was in denial. I was in shock. I still feel all off these things. To hear that information from Brett, and to hear the pain and turmoil in his voice, made it very clear that this was very real. Then Brett and I decided that I should call Jim right away. I tried calling several times, only to get his voice mail. With each failed attempt, my heart grew heavier. With each failed attempt, the sorrow and angst grew exponentially inside of my heart. I had to reach Jim. So I then called Shane, who Slimmy and I have known for four years and co-hosted our internet radio show along with Slim and myself, knew Mike from past get-togethers and events. I called Shane and told him what had transpired and he was beside himself just like we all were. Hee told me that Slimmy was camping up at Rollins Lake with his fiancee and some friends and family. Then my mind starts the vicious cycle of debate and question... Do I wait until Monday when Jim gets back so I dont ruin his vacation? Do I ask Shane to disturb his family plans and drive to Rollins Lake to tell Jim in person? What is the right decision? It took all of three seconds and Shane saying He should know right away, bro. At first, I did NOT want to call him. I was afraid. I asked Shane if he could call the campground office and leave an emergency message to be relayed to Jim to call Shane and in turn call me. Slimmy called me back, but his tone suggested that he didnt get the message yet. He had just by chance went to his car to check his phone and saw that I had called repeatedly. I told him what had happened and he could not stay on the phone with me. His fiancee got on the phone for a moment, then the call ended. I knew what that meant, and after a bit Jim called me back and we talked for a few. The tornado of emotions was just beginning as the night progressed. By the way, a big thank you..Shane for using your own experiences with your own losses of close friends to help do what was right in getting in touch with Jim and Nicole. So, a little time had passed. At this point, Im still driving on the freeway to Twin Falls to get Jehryn....Numb....confused... disconnected...I get to Twin Falls and arrive at my ex-wife, Sondra Benavidez house to pick up Jehryn. Jehryn was riding her bike and hanging out at the neighbor/sitters house waiting for me. Sondra knew Mike and Christine from when Sondra and I were married and lived with them in Citrus Heights for awhile. I had to call her and break the news, as she and her husband were just starting a training meeting for their business at the time I called. She was speechless. Later in the evening, Fernando answered my call, and knowing how devastated he is about this, I could not process that sound in his voice that was all too familiar now with having talked to Brett, Jim, Shane, Mike Michael Henry, and everyone else at that point. I wont revisit my conversation with Fernando on here because it was a conversation that was just for he and I. My heart hurts for everyone affected by this. Bob, Mikes Dad...Tim Suwyn, Mikes brother...Jeff, Mikes brother...Cheryl Suwyn, Mikes aunt...all of Mikes extended family, Deanna, Janet, Eric, Chris, and so many more.. Christine, Mikes wife...Katie, Mikes daughter...Savannah, Mikes step daughter....the list goes on and on. I can only sum these past 19 hours up in this poem I wrote last night at 3am. *What Are Friends For* I am angry, but its so you dont have to be anymore. I am tired, but its so you dont have to be anymore. I am lost, but its so you dont have to be anymore. I am speechless, but its so you dont have to be anymore. You are smiling, so Im not sad anymore. You are laughing, so Im not mad anymore. You are resting, so Im not restless anymore. You are my friend, so Im not alone anymore. I love you Michael Suwyn. Rest In Peace
Posted on: Sat, 24 May 2014 18:49:11 +0000
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