I dont always feel the need to share gratitude. Only because the inwardness of it tends to add to the shine in my eye, it becomes food for my hunger. But there are some days when thanks just begs to be basked in the light of words. For those four 11 year old girls. The ones I have been blessed to watch sprout up like weeds. Who care for each other and tend to each others hearts in the most loving and gentle ways. For their wild sweetness. Their perfect pitch songs. Their crazy hormones. For their purple streaked hair. The way the hold hands when they walk to the park together. Candy. All nighters. Sisterhood. Hope. For my husband, who without him I would never push myself to the most uncomfortable and interesting edges of myself. Whose mirror allows me to see places of me Id never tend to. Our connection and conversations melt me deeper into me, deeper into a practice of self love, and at the same time give me space to explore the greater, universal conversations of all that is. Because of him I am finding a better meaning of me. I have never lost myself in this relationship. I find myself more and more every day, especially in the harder days, the days when marriage seems just stupid and lame and that I suck at it. Turning towards each other and seeing... seems to bring a greater evolution of myself. All the people who so generously support me as a writer and artist and midwife to mystery. I am overcome with grace, truly, in awe, trying to understand this abundance, and trying hard not question my worth. I could not own this work without you. I could not claim it without the opening of each of your hearts. I give such thanks. This light, today, its fireweed honey. I can taste it though this dirty window. The light of autumn heals me. Its so sweet. Music. Always. Voice lessons. Because I am turning up the volume a bit. My dog. Hes my long lost son. Sundays. They always seem sacred, in their own way, dont they? No matter what they bring, there is a sacredness to Sunday. Thank you Day of The Sun. Thank you.
Posted on: Sun, 28 Sep 2014 22:27:42 +0000