I feel like writing today. I had some flash back moment while I was driving just now. I was sobbing too few days ago out of sudden thinking of having the privilege of becoming a Muslim, and all my reverted friends as well..(hey, originally born Muslims can be reverted too k..those who chose Islam, cos Islam cant be inherited.) So anyway, time passed by extremely fast. The day I left home 12 years ago to further study and that was the moment I got to murtad from Christianity (sbb dah freedom ma). From free thinker that dislikes Islam to self registration at Jawi 5 years ago (no one was with me cos I wana make sure my intention to revert was purely for Allah sake. And so that was just it, proud being a Muslim just by name n just wana die as a Muslim.(cos I know Islam is the truth by just holding on to the tauhid concept,thats it.) Allahs favor was on me (and still on me inshaAllah) that He gave me guidance again 2 years ago which from then on, i fell in love with Islam. (Allah will guide those who seeks for the truth, if He wills) From rejecting our dear prophet Muhammad peace be upon him to loving him with all my heart now. (I too love Jesus more than i was a so call christian back then.) From swearing to myself infront of the mirror that I will not wear a headscarf to the fact that the headscarf is part of my life now. From planning not to get married and here I am a wifey now,(but my ex colleagues used to think that I am married though, worst still I admit to it, cos by being married less attention will be on u hence less gossip ma,hee, so 8 years undercover jadi bini org lol) and many other things which I cant imagine or used to dislike back then are part of my life now. Time really passed that fast. If i just rely on my own strength I dont think I can make it this far cos Im stil a human after all. Allah is so great that He can change ones heart in a split sec, if He wants to. Practically I can say almost everything that I planned for in my life is totally opposite of what I have now, except being wanting to involve in a dawah organization which I have no idea where n who at that time, all praise due to Allah to grant my doa. I pray that He will also continue to give me and all the ummah the strength that we need to face this world. Ameen. So basically thats the shortcut story of my roller coaster journey so far. Haha,short la, nanti org baca bosan. On the other hand, I would also like to take this opportunity to apologize to some of my friends for not publically announce my nikah 7 months ago. It was a lil private n just within family. I didnt have the chance also to have the perfect timing for my walimah as both of us dwells in extraordinary schedules which i have also called off the date twice for now that we set earlier due to the rushness which Im totally not keen of. (I used to dream to have a perfect wedding if ever ever I got married la, who doesnt, but its alright now..Allah knows the best for us,isnt it) So.. ok, after the not so nice announcement, (not nice cos some of u whom i dont get to meet in ages may caught in surprise,) I wana share some of my joy & happiness with all of u. I just surpassed my 1st trimester (managed to do the scanning yesterday cos during the 1st month dr scan tak nampak) and yes, I am pregnant haha. It was so amazing (cliche statement like all mothers will say,) and Im stil amazed though of how one creature can be inside us, subhanAllah. I can see thru the monitor the tiny mouth n leg are moving,n I can hear the heartbeat is pretty fast too,alhamdulillah. Psst..dear baby, I even think of visiting u by going for a scan daily. Miss u already :*( Mummy promise inshaAllah wont complain anymore for the nausea n having the body of Nokia 3210 (weak & anytime can shutdown) while carrying u k, hee. Well, it came across my mind of how a mother can dump their own newborn baby just like that,they must be at a dead end, kan, may Allah forgive them,Ameen. So, thats the overall story for today. So random. Haha.
Posted on: Mon, 03 Nov 2014 15:52:02 +0000
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