I have been really sad since learning of Robin Williams suicide. Not so much because he died, but because of HOW he died. Such soul-crushing pain he must have been in; such deep despair that I cannot fathom. But I have also felt very angry. After reading some members of the general publics reactions, on FB and elsewhere, I need to comment. Two sentiments I read were If only he knew how much people loved and appreciated him... and most infuriating, If only he had given his heart to Jesus. Do these folks not understand that Robin suffered not only from mental illnesses but also addiction, both of which he had been public about. These are DISEASES, not life choices. These diseases killed him, just as heart disease or diabetes or cancer can kill you. Knowing that people appreciate and love and admire you WILL NOT CURE DEEP DEPRESSION. Giving your heart to Jesus WILL NOT CURE DEEP DEPRESSION. I have suffered for many years with clinical depression, and I know some of the feelings that go along with it. I have not travelled the depths of darkness that Robin - and thousands of others - must have suffered and continue to suffer. But that is not because I live right or believe right or know that people love me. Its because I simply do not have the severe, crippling level of depression that leads to suicidal thoughts and suicide itself. I have been lucky to have the right combo of medication and therapy that is able to manage my disease. Of course I didnt know Robin Williams, nor did most of you. I do, however, know of a few people who have attempted suicide and some who have succeeded in taking their own lives. You probably do, too. I imagine that all they could see was how to escape their own pain, both physical and mental. Its not cowardice. Its not selfishness. Its not weakness. It is CERTAINLY not a moral or spiritual failing. If any of you, my friends, feel that level of pain and if you are able, talk to me. And get professional help, if you can; turn yourself in to your doctor or pastor or another expert. And I will promise you to do the same. Most of you know Im not a hugger and Im not openly affectionate most of the time. But I am here for you, as are many many others. I am here, for what thats worth.
Posted on: Wed, 13 Aug 2014 22:11:18 +0000
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