I have yet to find the perfect balance. I’m here at the hospital again with my Mom for, yet, another overnight. There was an “event” that occured with her yesterday so I was exhausted going into last night. Tonight I’m not any more rested. This morning I went from here to the studio, had a few hrs with my husband and kids this afternoon. Not without conference calls throughout the day for my work. Right now things seem a bit crazy. My mother, my one “sure thing” isn’t so sure. That makes it hard to focus on the many other things I’m supposed to be in my life. I am truly grateful that my husband is the amazing husband / father he is. He is taking such good care of the boys. That doesn’t stop me from missing my kids when I have to spend so much time away from them to be there for my mom. Each day is a new adventure with her. Some days it’s a step forward and some days its a step back. One thing IS for sure, nothing is certain. As so many of you are aware, I am in the middle of this Kickstarter campaign. It’s a constant effort to reach the goal. To be honest, there are days that I am wore out and heartbroken and I don’t feel like searching for “backers”. But, I have to. If I stopped, it would effect not just me, but, my employees their spouses, children, families. You see when you don’t have new product out there, work slows down. My last few years on my label they didn’t release new product into the marketplace. That means, if we reach our goal, we will then be making up for lost time. I owe it to myself and the many people that rely on me (and their families) to keep pushing forward. Even on the sucky days when it’s not easy. Being in the studio is my refuge (as I’ve mentioned before). I get the hurt out in a song. I get to get lost in the production, focus on creating a sound for the record. It’s a blessing to be able to have that. The music is there for me the way it has always been. Reliable and understanding - yes it sounds like I’m talking about a person. ha Balancing all of it out is difficult. I know eventually I will figure it out. It will just take a bit to do it. For right now, I’m stretched pretty thin and feel like I’m running on empty.
Posted on: Wed, 12 Jun 2013 05:02:11 +0000
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