I just got hit with a very hateful communication. I feel awful! I could just ignore this person and be self-righteous: not good. I could be emotionally devastated and thus not be deserving of anything like a close relationship with anyone: also not good and, perhaps, on the road to self-destruction. I could take time and go the slow way to healing: not good; Ill waste time in dealing with this bodys own impatience, the manifestation of my own raw energy. And then, I could be graced, find the magick I need to deal with this situation: a hope but probably a pipe dream. Oh, if only love were real and not based on my performance. Im not talking about the basic love that assures ones survival but the kind people learn to earn in making friends and thus receiving love and affection. I dont withhold love and affection from people because they may not appear politically correct to me. I do because I have a deathly fear of negative responses, thus I feel I walk on thin ice. I lack the education and training. Will the critics say I am ignoring what is correct for me to learn?
Posted on: Fri, 21 Mar 2014 18:57:31 +0000