I know this is kinda late to say it but I can relate to how Robbin Williams feel. I have really bad depression and I take medication for it. The stress also makes it worse for me to be happy. I also fight with family a lot because of my many medical diagnosed problems so I cause most of the depression and stress and I want to control it but I cant most of the time. I always try to be the funny and nice kid that a lot of you guys or girls fell in love with as a friend or a mate. But never judge a book by its cover. i am very emotionally damaged and Im trying my best to stay strong. but I always have those thought and fights that make me wonder... Is it really worth fighting? Am I just better off 5 feet under? Am I always going to feel like this and act like a ass hole that a cant control? A broken heart upon a depressing and stress full life with broken dreams and happiness?... I know many of you guys love me and all but when people fight around me or with me really effects me hard, and on top of that 20% of the time make me jump and want to beat the shit out of the person for making my life worse, making me feel like shit, and make me think about suicide. Im trying my best to stay head strong and fight through this heartbreaking thing called depression but sometimes It comes back hitting me in the head and much stronger then before. I can admit it does make me a better and stronger person to get past the rough times but that doesnt mean I can still fall back into the pit of depression... It will always have a grip on you threw out your life and its just waiting for you to give up and make the decision to take the never ending sleep of failure and sadness...
Posted on: Thu, 14 Aug 2014 02:14:03 +0000