I think God is trying to tell me something. Last night, while my mind was rushing thru all thats wrong & trying to find solutions for things beyond my control, God sent me peace. So often the answers & calm we need can be found in the smallest of things. Last night my heart was troubled by problems & situations that can only be explained as looking at a kaleidoscope. Individual problems falling together into a beautiful mosaic. Same problems, different patterns. I like to think my anticipation/consideration of all outcomes have prevented a lot of issues. Every now & then Im reminded that absolutely nothing I stress over will affect the outcome as He has already written my story & knows how it ends. In the midst of stressing last night, I found my soul dancing. Twirling to be exact. In a voice that Im sure is what angel wings sounds like, she was singing & twirling with pure joy. Alone. So lost in the song that she didnt notice me there for a while. I felt Gods peace & presence so strongly that tears came to my eyes. I was so moved by what I was seeing that for a moment I literally couldnt remember how to take a picture without stopping the music. The joy in her heart at that moment so strong she didnt notice Collin in the other doorway or me frantically using hand gestures so as not to distract her. Apparently, my subtle hand gestures that probably resembled throwing gang signs got her attention. She didnt stop. She just smiled & kept twirling. For a while now I have noticed how fast time is slipping away but in this memory it froze. All of this taking place in roughly 3 minutes or the length of Coldplays Yellow. Today I decided to share Yellow off of YouTube for those that may not know the significance of the song. Little did I know God was sharing something with me. When it started play I felt that nudge from God as if to say, Hi. Check it out. Im still here. For all of the songs I love I have probably only watched the video for 1/4 of them. This was in the unwatched category. For those of you who know me well enough to know that I am a firm believer that Heaven lies somewhere between sea & sky off the South Carolina coast & that my soul is about 3 feet tall & twirls then you will see the significance in the 2 events. For you Id bleed myself dry. Yellow by Coldplay. F*ck cancer.
Posted on: Sun, 04 Jan 2015 22:53:41 +0000