I was being so worried and self-absorbed yesterday, trying to be God. My answer came last night...after I called my daughters work. Immediately after I called, I wasnt filled with relief, like I thought I would be...mostly shame...cause I couldnt ride it out and have faith in God that things would be alright. As I spoke to what I call as the boy staying with me...some might call him a man, but I call this 20 year old, a boy. I saw him reading the childrens study bible I had procured for him from one of our sunday school teachers. As I watched him my mind recalled, him in the same position, every spare moment, the way you or I would over a new ENQUIRER. Amused, and partly jaded, thinking it was for my benefit, I asked what he was reading. He looked up seriously and evenly spoke, Im reading about THE ACTS, right now, I finished most of THE MATTHEWS, and some of the JOHNS, but I gotta go back and read some of the LUKES, because thats what the preacher was talking about yesterday. Testing for how the scam would unfold, I said simply, Tell me about it. This beautiful child lit up, glad to be able to share the exciting stories, he had been reading, he spoke, and retold the stories, as to the way he understood what he had just read, and you could tell, as he re-told for he was without even a blink or hint of doubt. I knew he had read it for the first time. I realized at that moment, he had 100% believed me, when I told him...We dont have to worry, weve got God, he takes care of all the big stuff...and we take care of the little stuff ...like the lack of Christians in the world. I also knew, that because he trusted me and had read in this book, we call the bible and largely take for granted, he believed everything it told him, and was already resting confidently, in the faith, and security, that someone way better than him or me was in charge. I was able to understand his lack of worry. So in my shame, and lack of faith, realizing I was sidetracked, doing the very thing I told him not to do. At that moment, as I sat beside him on the couch, which is his bed for today, or tomorrow, however long, it didnt matter, I saw total acceptance, and the most incredible faith, and I was in awe and it drew me in, without shaking his faith, by exposing my lack of it...I just asked him...Read to me, and as if God hadnt bestowed enough of a blessing on me, by allowing me to be a part of something so wonderful, I listened as he read...it wasntlike when he read 3 days ago, before we prayed. When we had done what I call the A B Cs with him,(accept, believe, confess) when he had accepted Christ. I noticed less struggle with the large words, and more comprehension. I sat speechless(yes SPEECHLESS) and listened. He turned to me and said,Lee, I can tell my reading is getting better, and I can tell, its because God is helping me, I pray and keep asking God to help me, and I can tell he is, but he tells me I have to do my part, so I have to keep reading and trying.. I guess if there is a moral to the story, I guess live your life in a manner that people can put trust in what you say...and they can believe in you until they understand, what it is to believe in God, and certainly it upholds my theory, that we are about 4th generation of walked away from God. I really knew, I couldnt be the only one that was that far off the mark where God was concerned. They are here, when you get them to sit down long enough to grasp the concept, people(I mean me) want it ...we want to know, somebody more competent than us is in charge...and we get the easy no worry job. I dont know what Im trying to say..this is a great story, I have a great life...and someone who makes better plans than I do, has plans for ME!!!Plans for a future...Plans to prosper ME!! I know cause someone gave me a book to read, and told me I could believe it...and it said it....in THE JEREMIAHS!!!!
Posted on: Tue, 11 Mar 2014 17:24:05 +0000
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