I wish love was something tangible. Today I had an emotional breakdown and was overwhelmed by the amount of joy I felt from the support and relationships Ive built around me. The last few months have really shower me a lot about myself and those I surround myself with . I had time to reflect on my life and the years past, and current transformation Im in and who the people are at my side. I know Facebook is generally not a place to divulge your deepest thoughts- but I felt it necessary to share this, because love just isnt tangible. I have an over abundance of love, so much so it came pouring out of my eyes like a bathtub with a plugged drain. My name means I love you and although I always felt that was my god given purpose- I never knew how much of the receiving end I could be on of those three little words. Today, I got high on love. It was the best buzz Ive ever felt- it went from the crown of my head, swirled deep within my belly to the tips of my toes. If love were something tangible I would scoop it up in an un-measuring cup and pour it over the tops of people heads that need it and let it drip down them like a fountain of chocolate, drenching them in tasty delight. Because chocolate is the only tangible way I can explain love. Its richness, its pleasure, its stimulus, its satiating nature. I had to confess, I felt a sense of guilt over this amount of gluttony and over-indulgence Ive had in the recent months. how could one person have so much love? What have I done to experience this karmic blessing? (And blessing is an understatement) I couldnt figure out why I was rushed with sensation of heartwarming goodness and gratitude. Then it hit me. I was experiencing Love-Squared. The support from my friends, and my family is insurmountable but its not just for me. Its for the child within me. Two souls in one body both experiencing this abundance, this richness, this sacred experience of love. When I realized I had doubled down on love and quadrupled my winnings. I took in a deep breath and let out a cry more pure then gold itself. We cried. We thanked. We laughed. We prayed. Both of us are experiencing a bond that has been enriched by the people and relationships around us. There may not be anything greater then a mothers love...except for the mother that feels the love from the village it takes to raise the child. Only in stepping back and expressing gratitude and giving back can you feel completely human whole. My only piece of advice for my son-to-be is that love is not something you hope for, love is something your prioritize, love is something you practice. When face with adversity you always choose love. Love for yourself as equal to the love for the stranger. You create the love you desire for your life- its not on the hands or the heart of anyone else. All I can say to my village is thank you, and that I hope whip up the best batch of love and return it to you someday. Remember, Love is all you need because if you die in love then youll live forever. Cosmos Mom, Nayeli
Posted on: Mon, 28 Jul 2014 21:27:58 +0000
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