Im just sitting here as my mama sleep and this is my time to reflect on whats really going on. Im Tameka G. Myles and I am my mamas only living child. On October 15, 2012 my life changed. That day I felt like my heart had been ripped out of my chest. My mama was diagnosed with Stage 4 Inflammatory Breast Cancer. But let me take u back a sec. June of 2012 my mama had a Stroke. She suffered from 12-15 Seizures. The Stroke came about from her having a Brain Tumor that was in the Middle of her Brain in between her brain cells. She had Brain Surgery on July 30th 2012. Then my mama had another small Stroke in August 2012 and Fell in September 2012 and then back to October 15. My first thought in my mind was I Need To Move Home to Take Care of my mama so I did just that. October 25, 2012 was the First day she started Chemotherapy Treatment and thats when things became REAL to me. It was many of days where she was really sick couldnt keep food down she couldnt even get out of bed or go to the potty At that point I became a Work In Progress. When I had to start feeding, clothing, and bathing my mama thats when she became my baby I cried and screamed and asked God Why! I pray each and every day I wake up and when I go to sleep. I pray more for her then I pray for myself. My mama was in and out in and out of the hospital week after week after week and there I was by her side. My mama had 5 Chemotherapy Treatments before she had her Breast Removed in March of 2013. In April of 2013 we myself and family and friends did the Avon Breast Cancer Walk. Since her breast surgery she has still been in and out the hospital and she had her 7th Chemotherapy Treatment in June of 2013. July of 2013 she started a new journey at MD Anderson and that is when she started her 33 sessions of radiation therapy. This has been a DAILY STRUGGLE but i Dnt Complain. On August 8, 2013 we were told that she had went into Remission but for that to soon come to a disappointment 2 weeks later her test results came back and more cancer lymph nodes where found. My mama is my air my sunshine my best friend she is my everything. No one but me and my God knows how i feel. I feel like i cnt do nothing to fix this for her and like i tell her all the time if i could i would. I cry all the time i cry every night and all I Pray is an unselfish prayer to allow me to be ok with whatever Gods will is. I pray and ask God let her live to see tomorrow and thats all i can ask for 1 day at a time. Last Tuesday November 5,2013 she finished her last radiation therapy treatment but the Cancer is Still There so all we do now is follow up and get scanned every 3 months. Im so in my feelings because what and where would i be without her My Mama?
Posted on: Sun, 17 Nov 2013 04:58:24 +0000