Insert 100..... 3 weeks later.. I was still mad at Nathi, I wasnt willing to forgive him, I was waiting for my heart to heal so I could forgive. I avoided and stayed away from him , it wasnt easy because I loved him but I was learning to stay without him. Everyday was a struggle but I pulled through with the help of my sessions, I had started counseling sessions and they were helping a lot even though I wasnt talking about my relationship. They were about the rape and I was slowly healing though I had gone for 2 weeks, I chose to attend them every day after school. Ntliziyo yam ndlela le ikhawuleza ngayo ugqithisa, I was slowly healing and I could see progress, my anger had gone down a bit. I was fine with dad as the only man in my life, I didnt need anyone to tell me that they love me everyday. I was keeping away from guys, I wanted no man near me. I had stopped being friends with Odwa becasue he was nothing but trouble,her and Luthando were fast laway like they were trying to make me jealous. At school I always sat alone, I didnt need any company. I wanted to fight my demons alone, I had turned to being quiet, no more talkative and bubbly. Besendisisyoyoyo nje kodwa bendingaqhelwa tuu. Whenever someone tried tripping on me I would walk away like a boss. I no longer fought people, I would become the bigger person and walked away. I enjoyed being home alone so much, my dad was always away lately and I loved it when he was away bendiba free, I would walk around the house naked, andiyaz nam bendisenziswa yinton but I loved walking around naked xandindodwa. I was siting at the garden staring into space thinking about Nathi.I was so lost in my thoughts when I felt a tap on the shoulder, I jumped up in shock and turned it was my dad. Me: Undothusile. Dad: Am sorry, come I want you to meet someone. Me: Whos that? Dad: Iza kalok princess. I got up, cleaned my short in the bum, I followed dad to the lounge, there was a beautiful curved woman standing in front of the tv, she smiled when we entered looking down, she looked like she was blushing. Her: Hey. Me: Molweni sisi. Her: Unjani nana? I looked at dad frowning, dad chuckled and looked away. Me: Ndiyaphila sisi unjani? Her: Ndiyaphila. Dad: Princess this is Luyanda my friend, luyanda uyamaz moss u princess. Luyanda: Ewe ndiyamazi, you never told me that she is this beautiful, Dad: Mbi lomtu ufana nam. Luyanda: Awukho mbi , yintle intombi yakho. Uthambis ntoni nana? Dad: Pink happiness why? Luyanda: Sihle iskin sakhe ndijonge imilenze le ijijeke ingathi yeyakho. Me: Yho andaphoxeka. Dad: Hahaha akazazi ibrackets princess alok akanazo nemilenze esitraight ingathi uyagula. I laughed at her, she looked down blushing again. She looked like a school kid lona, she was chubby and cute, Ingathi yinto yodlala. I giggled at my crazy thoughts, dad pushed me slightly. Dad: Shes moving in with us for a few weeks, she is still looking for a place to stay Me: Inoba uzotsho uyeke ungabuyi. Dad: Sundihlaza. He whispered, Luyanda laughed. I helped her with her bags, I showed her a spare bedroom. I left the room while she was fixing it and packing her clothes. I went to the kitchen, dad was long gone. I cooked and went to town when I was done. I was wearing a short and a vest with flip flops with my hair tied in a bun. I needed to buy airtime , I went to spar and bought airtime and a few things. On my way out I bumped into Nathi, he was with a girl, I looked far away pretending I didnt see him, he held my arm. I turned to face him, he looked down. Me: Hi. Nathi: Unjani? Me: Ndiyaphila, unjani? Nathi: Ndiyaphila. Girl: Nathi ngubani lo? Nathi: Ngu Anathi my girlfriend. Girl: Oh ok zondifumana ngaphakathi ke. The girl walked away , I pulled my arm away from him. Me: Bye I have to go. Nathi: Ndicela ukukhambisa. Me: Ah-ah ndiright. Nathi: Ndiyakthanda vha. I looked at him with squinted eyes. Me: Akhonto iphakathi kwethu mos so stop telling me you love me Nathi. I walked away from him leaving him standing like a fool. I walked even faster when I was out of his sight, I got home and went straight to my room.
Posted on: Wed, 06 Aug 2014 19:45:38 +0000
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