Its been 2 weeks since my sister left me here missing her like crazy 24-7. Every little thing I do reminds me of her and it can be as simple as pumping gas because she loved the smell of gasoline or putting my car into reverse because she claimed to be the best backwards driver. What I would do to have her back in my life..even for one more day so I could tell her how proud I am of her and how much I love her. It hurts to think we wont ever take another picture or spend another holiday together. But when I start to get upset while reminiscing on good times with her, my entire body goes numb right after I briefly feel this sharp painful emptiness at the pit of my stomach. My body goes numb to the pain and then I can only think positive thoughts. I remind myself that Jess is in a better place and isnt suffering through the everyday battles of life. I remind myself that this isnt the end for her and I will see her again someday. Jessies death has saved so many people and she has brought my family back together. And although I cant change what happened on October 8th, Im learning to accept it and its changing my outlook on life. From here on out, I can only learn and grow from this tragedy. And along the way Im realizing who is worth my time and who isnt. I feel stronger already and this is only the beginning. I miss you entirely too much, Jess! Until we meet again.. When someone you love becomes a memory, the memory becomes a treasure.
Posted on: Tue, 22 Oct 2013 13:21:12 +0000
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