Ive spent the last year writing posts about my recovery my childhood my mother and my changed life. Sometimes I just sit and wonder where I might be if my life had not changed. The changes Ive talked about, my memories of living in a wonderful neighborhood with so many childhood friends has reconnected me to all you wonderful people. Its like weve renuewed all the old memories. My mother was so happy about my recovery and was so happy l learned to be part of her last years on earth! Weve spent many an hour discussing the happenings in my life and how I saw them verses how I see them today. She adored my change of heart and attitude of forgiveness. I began to see that my mom always loved me but not in the way I wanted her too. She had many other children in her life and loved them all as the individuals they were. I as a selfish child could never see her love for me but as i became sober looking back she did the best she could given the circumstances. Ive since learned much more about love and forgiveness and realized what a job it must have been for people to forgive me for my past. Theres a lot to be said for being able to get the record straight with my mother while she was alive and learning she had a love for me I never dreamed would be visible. It was so very visible! I hope my gratitude for her my siblings my family and my friends will be half as obvious as my mothers love for me became to me! I might also mention your love for me and my family has become so very visible. I need love to be the center of my life therefore it is so welcome! Thank you from the bottom of my heart!
Posted on: Wed, 02 Apr 2014 20:01:35 +0000
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