January 6th.. As I take my last chemo pill- I thank God for seeing me through the process.. hooray!!!!! I made it through...without feeling sick a day. I have heard horror stories about chemo and radiation but prayers are powerful!!! After getting an initial rash and then a mixed up with medication which cause the rash, I immediately stopped taking the before pills. There was one 3 times weekly and 45 mins daily before chemo..I dont need it in my system. I thank God everyday, that I can move around, not vomiting once and nothing severe. Twice I got seizure, and I get tired easily... Thats expected. Its the little things l am excited for...like eating pass 7pm- I have to take chemo on an empty stomach. I cant wait to start the gym again... My hair is going to grow back..being on this stupid steroid makes me go crazy. Short temper with everyone, makes me eat everything, my face is like a chipmunk (like you havent notice lol) Those are the things I look forward to.. Next step: I have MRI scheduled for Feb 6th and results on Feb 9th.. This is the result, I will know where my progress is. Im so nervous about MRI, prayers are powerful. My greatest fear is watching my love ones seeing me deteoriate into nothing. My greatest motivation is to get through this.. Phase 2- my Oncologist would like to start that immediately. What is Phase 2- I get more days off with chemo but higher dosage. I prayed that the higher dosage doesnt affect me, my body would respond just like it did before. Time will tell.. Its 5 days on but 23 days off. That will go on for about 1 year or so..Whatever it takes for it not to come back. My speech is coming back, slowly but surely. After surgery, I wasnt able to talk, I was able to get my speech back on the 4th day.... Its work in progress. Now my speech and driving privileges are the frustrating parts. Everytime I think about my life how it has changed it makes me sad, having to depend on anyone is frustrating- life has changed drastically..Due to the seizure the driving resets the clock everytime. I cant drive until July- given that no more seizure occurs. I could never live with myself knowing I hurt someone else while driving so I am following the rules. Whoever knows me knows that I am an on the go person and I would pick and go whenever I want, my friends use to call it making my rounds..lol Its amazing how life changes! It hasnt been easy but I am grateful for everyday. My doctors are amazed at my progress and recovery time!!! Hopefully everything stays in my favor. I want to thank every single person for all your support!!! Indirectly and directly.. Taking me daily radiation, spending time with me, lifting my spirits up, just being there. I am forever grateful. Thank you for donations, I could never thank you enough!!! This is going be my next post- free medical. There shouldnt be a price tag to anyones life!!! Being positive attitude either make you or break you, I chose positively. Initially I wanted to be private about this. Physical changed alone well I would have had to hide in a corner but it doesnt matter what you look like on the outside but what you carry on inside. Generally, you receive what you give out. But after I saw a lot of support pouring, people in different states and countries, all types of religion prayed for me, I realize that I could not do this alone. Couped up in a corner, thats so not me. So I appreciate it all..again I am not looking pity party, just to show how a I can cancer patient live... Im one lucky ones!!! #teamvanessa #wegotthis #prayerarepowerful #lifeisapriviledge #liveagoodlife #grateful #beyondblessed #livelaughlove
Posted on: Wed, 07 Jan 2015 04:22:41 +0000