Just got the call Ive been dreading. Ive been laying here more restless than usual. Couldnt wrap my mind around the feeling I had. Then my phone lit up and it was my uncle. Grandma passed away just a bit ago with my aunt there by her side. My last grandparent...my heart hurts so bad and I miss her already. I want nothing more than to hold her hand again and give her one more kiss on her forehead....but there would never be enough hugs, enough kisses, enough days to make up for the 20 years we didnt even know each other. I feel ripped off. Im angry with my bio scumbag father for keeping me a secret from my grandparents. He robbed me of a love I could have had my entire life. My grandma and grandpa loved me unconditionally and I loved them the same. They were the best grandparents for the 12 years I got to have them in my life. Im thankful beyond belief for those 12 years...but Im pissed that I was robbed of the first 20 with them. I expected the sadness with all of this...I didnt anticipate the years of hatred and anger to surface though. So if Im a bit out of sorts in the days ahead...please forgive me. Im just dealing with some pretty heavy stuff right now. I love you to the Heavens and above Grandma...
Posted on: Sun, 14 Dec 2014 08:59:50 +0000
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