Last night I found exactly what I was looking for, and it made me cry. I never expected such a large blow to my face, such an ache in my heart. I bit back the tears that welled in my eyes, sitting here in front of my computer, reading what you had to say. Im sorry if I was ever the one that made you cry, or ever made you feel the least bit blue. I really am. Now that I reminisce about the past, the beginning days of our friendship are not clear to me, but vivid are the memories I cry to at night, the day that you spoke your last words to me. Maybe if I had known how much Id miss you in the future, Id call you back fast and apologize, but I didnt. Maybe it was my fault that our friendship was torn, maybe it was me who didnt try hard enough. Maybe it was my sense of pride that held me back from falling to my knees and begging for forgiveness. If that was the case, there are not enough words I can use to reprimand myself for being too proud, being too bold. But now that you are gone, that same shame keeps me from calling you and keeps me from hearing your voice that has haunted my thoughts so many nights. If I had known how many long agonizing nights could have been spared, I would have bent over backwards not wanting to miss a single second when you spoke to me. Its true, what people say about not realizing how much you love someone till theyre gone.
Posted on: Mon, 20 Oct 2014 07:48:25 +0000
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