MY LIFE STORY... (preety long..but worth the read) Alot of people ask me.. What caused your depression... can it ever go away? Will you continue to fight? What caused it is my messed up life from my childhood. I grew up with a mother that cared more about beer then her own kids. then it got so bad that sometimes I wouldnt eat for awhile...it got to the point my sister lied to save me..Im glad she did..it helped but also changed me...I saw my mom go crazy saying stuff, she was going to kill herself and sometimes she would get so drunk she would push me or my brother to the floor in mere rage because she was so drunk not knowing what she was doing. she would sleep all day and when we got hungry I would feed us.... Then after we got taken away I would live in this place for months...meet new people, new friends...and new loves..but it all came to an end when Id have to move again..and it just kept going on and on with moving. left and right..I finally tried to make no friends at all..because it all ended the same..with me moving and losing them forever...So I kept to myself..hiding in the shadows and keeping quite...even if I stayed months...I was still told to move..Even the familys I lived with..I would get so attached..or they would to me..that it just destroyed me, More and more seeing those loving faces have to get rid of something they cared for...the best friend I did keep however..was Kendyl Kaufmann....Yea I had some bad times there...I really made a bad impression when her little brother victor. hit me in the mouth with a seat bealt and I yelled at him...I felt so bad I just wanted to hide from them...But they didnt give up..they accepted me and taught me whats right and wrong. most of it I knew but I wanted to make sure...One day me and her got into a fight..and before you ask yes..I was a foster child..she told me it was her choice to have me in her house and I felt so bad...Ive always made Kendyl mad at me..never really being on her side..and im sorry..after I finally got back with my mom at age 14 it happend yet once more..she kept getting drunk..no money...barly any food...no electricity or running water..so it happend again..and It just kept going...I went from blood familys..to foster care...To hell even at one point..I was sent to juvey..but that didnt change who I am today...because I teached myself to be strong...to look up at only yourself and to make a path of your own...Yea 2 years kept going of moving. court..C.P.S and shit...and I finally got home to my mom and she changed...no more beer...nothing..It was a good sight but to this day I still have problems...lots... of problems...that I just wanna wish away..my depression is killing me..Physically and mentally...but hey..its life... thanks for reading this..if you did take the time..I Love you guys
Posted on: Sun, 20 Oct 2013 08:41:24 +0000
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