My back surgery is at 2pm tomorrow EST. I have to be checked in at 12:15. I had an amazing afternoon with Christine Link and spent the evening with Nancy Taylor-Wright. Because I know with any surgery there is always a possibility of unforeseen complications I want to take this opportunity to express what I am thinking. I sit here glancing back and forth from the clock to the blinking cursor as time seems to be standing still yet my mind is racing a million miles a minute. I have had complications with surgeries, particularly waking up in the middle of them. I am over weight and have had MRSA on more than one occasion all of this increasing my odds for a possible negative outcome. I am having a section of my vertebrae removed and there is always the possibility of nicking the spinal cord and causing paralysis. But, honestly that is not what I am really thinking right now. What is really on my mind is that if for whatever reason I dont come away 100% from this surgery so be it. I have no regrets in my life. I have made the choices that were made at the moment they were in the state of mind that was reality. I cannot go back and question or wonder and I sure the hell dont owe any apologies to anyone. I have made it further than ever was expected and I am very happy, humble and content with the life that I live. It is not perfect and I am no master but what I am is an expert on surviving. I love the woman that I have forged and created. All the odds that are not stacked in my favor are sparse in comparison of my capacity to keep fighting and moving forward. All the goodness, love and light that surrounds me fills me with hope. I have the most amazing circle of friends and family. I am not afraid. I cant be afraid because I have seen me at my worst and with humility I nursed myself back to a level of strength that supersedes the physical part of the body. I am perfecting the the spirit body and from there I can overcome anything. With honor, humility and gratitude I ask that you keep me and my wife in your thoughts. I am open to accepting any type of healing and I am grateful for any help.
Posted on: Thu, 03 Jul 2014 01:29:05 +0000
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