My therapist has tried to assuage my unresolved feelings by reminding me that now that my mother has passed, I no longer have to worry about her relapsing, her manipulating us all with her painful behavior. I am “safe” from that now. Only sadly I am left with some bizarre lingering guilt that I didn’t just embrace the new, old mom, the drug-free one, the one I would have preferred to have had as my regular mom throughout the course of my life. There were times during the worst of it when I thought it would be better for her to be dead, so I would no longer deal with the emotional abuse cast upon us by her abuse. But now that she is gone, I realize that her addiction will continue to haunt me long after it no longer haunts her. ~ Jenny Gardiner books. *Thanks as always to SimpleReminders. make sure you are subscribed to The Manifest-Station so you get posts like this in your inbox! via Jennifer Pastiloff
Posted on: Wed, 19 Nov 2014 00:13:22 +0000
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