Okay, Ive been told to stop talking about this but Im really starting to get annoyed. I suffer from social anxiety and depression. YESS I have medication for both so YES I was diagnosed by a doctor for each. Im tired of being told that most (included the two I have) are made up, and arent real illnesses. I live with my anxiety everyday, even with medication its still tough. I couldnt handle public school, and had to switch because I was missing so much due to panic attacks and getting physically sick from it. Im 17 years old and i still have to have someone order my food for me because I panic at the thought of having to speak. I barely leave my house if I do its only with close family and its still tough. Im not even able to hang out with friends anymore without panicking and feeling like Im going to get sick. I finally was able to get out of the house and had a panic attack. Its a terrifying thing and Im tired of being told its my excuse to be lazy, that its for attention. I never use to tell anyone about why I couldnt go out, or why I couldnt do this or that. I was embarrassed because.. I was just scared. I was embarrassed that my friends and teachers thought I was pretending to be sick so I just wouldnt have to go to school. I was embarrassed that Id freak out at just normal situations. But Ive learned to leave with it and learning how to cope. Theres things I want to do in life that I just cant do, and Im not sure anyone but the people who have this will understand. Im just so sick of being told Im just lazy, or not motivated. Id love to be able to just roll out of bed every day and go out and have fun. I have social anxiety, and its not something to fake. Theres no justification for faking mental illness. It gives a negative outlook for the people who do have it when coming out to give it recognition.
Posted on: Wed, 01 Oct 2014 04:50:43 +0000
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